I'm not diagnosed... So I can't be sick, right?

[rescueisnotamyth]

Hey all. So my title basically sums this up... but I guess I'll just rant against myself for a bit.
Last summer through till fall I restricted. I started b/ping in February. I restricted half the summer, then b/ped the rest of it. I was restricting up until the last few days when I've been bingeing some... But see, I feel like I don't have massive binges, maybe a few hundred calories or so, they aren't "real" binges... I am also at the high end of a normal/"healthy" weight, so I certainly don't fit anorexia criteria... But I haven't been "diagnosed" with anything. Plus, I go through cycles of not calorie counting and not caring, so I feel as if I'm "better" then... even if I'm not sick anyway.
Basically I feel so messed up. I would hate to be diagnosed with an eating disorder... because it would seem a bit more real to me. Right now I'm probably just convincing myself I'm being healthy and losing weight... When I know I'm being destructive and controlling...
Does anyone else feel like this? The thoughts of "I haven't been properly diagnosed, I'm not sick." or "I'm at a healthy weight, I'm not sick." or "I'm just losing a bit of weight...". It's just so complicated in my mind...

[Tearsnvomit]

I'm not one to read rants mainly because I deal with them on a regular basis. But here us how I see it your only not diagnosed because you either don't go out and get the rubber stamp or you try not to be. In the end you know what the deal is so its up to you on how formal you want it to be. Diagnosis or not I know I cannot longer eat or digest food like I used to. It would be nice to know what to call it.

[ferret]

I felt exactly like you described before I was diagnosed. If you feel even a little bit out of control and like you might have a problem, go see your doctor, and tell them whats up. You have nothing to lose, if you are diagnosed, you can get helped, if you aren't then you can ask for help to stop yourself from getting far enough for you to need a diagnosis.

[stories]

I agree with what ferret said. And I feel the exact same as you because I am not diagnosed, am at a healthy weight, can lose is quick enough but don't always, etc. I feel like it is not that bad if can seem like I am eating normally. My head is such at a back-and-forth with this. So I understand how you feel. But in the end we all should know that diagnosed or not we have a problem and are suffering. The degree of suffering is not dependent on diagnostic criteria.

[theundeadgirl]

Hey all. So my title basically sums this up... but I guess I'll just rant against myself for a bit.
Last summer through till fall I restricted. I started b/ping in February. I restricted half the summer, then b/ped the rest of it. I was restricting up until the last few days when I've been bingeing some... But see, I feel like I don't have massive binges, maybe a few hundred calories or so, they aren't "real" binges... I am also at the high end of a normal/"healthy" weight, so I certainly don't fit anorexia criteria... But I haven't been "diagnosed" with anything. Plus, I go through cycles of not calorie counting and not caring, so I feel as if I'm "better" then... even if I'm not sick anyway.
Basically I feel so messed up. I would hate to be diagnosed with an eating disorder... because it would seem a bit more real to me. Right now I'm probably just convincing myself I'm being healthy and losing weight... When I know I'm being destructive and controlling...
Does anyone else feel like this? The thoughts of "I haven't been properly diagnosed, I'm not sick." or "I'm at a healthy weight, I'm not sick." or "I'm just losing a bit of weight...". It's just so complicated in my mind...

I can relate to what you're saying here but to answer your question, WRONG. Just because you haven't been diagnosed doesn't mean you're not sick, it means you need to make an appointment with a doctor and get yourself checked out!

[weightlessrunner]

I can relate to what you're saying here but to answer your question, WRONG. Just because you haven't been diagnosed doesn't mean you're not sick, it means you need to make an appointment with a doctor and get yourself checked out!

That just about sums up what I was going to say!

[parentin5]

I can relate to what you're saying here but to answer your question, WRONG. Just because you haven't been diagnosed doesn't mean you're not sick, it means you need to make an appointment with a doctor and get yourself checked out!

The undead girl is right. I made an appointment. My only unofficial diagnosis was my trainer until I was nearly kicked out of the program for noncompliance. Went to doctor to prove there was nothing wrong with ow I eat and I am now officially diagnosed with follow up to be scheduled. Hate hate hate labels. Until now they thought it was my heart etc. It was a good doctor who looked at my labs and called me out on it and of course I said I eat and he knew immediately how little it was and I had no choice but to conur. I want to be better but didn't want a label and didn't want anyone who had said anything to be right. Until now I had held close to the words of my prior doctor. You cant be eating that little because you wouldnt weigh what you do and your labs are fine. So I thought I was ok and eating enough. I got note then for trainer and said I can continue with doctors blessing. Sadly that was not the case this time. And now my family is figuring it out, including my husband who hadn't until now realized I wasnt eating. But last night he said you know, I know you dont eat at work but was thinking you eat here so you were fine and dr was wrong, but it occured to me that you dont always eat here either. Many times you skip dinner and go to bed. You need to eat. Went for walk after that because I was upset. When I returned he said did you get dizzy, said yea a little and he said yep you need to eat. so I did eat a sandwich and went to bed.

[theundeadgirl]

Parentin5,
I'm glad you got yourself checked out! I know it's not an easy step to take, but it can be the difference between life and death someday.

[BamBam12]

This is exactly the same as me... I went in to see my GP b'coz she wanted to give me iron tablets and she started telling me everything I should be eating to have good iron levels and I was so close to telling her about my issues with food but i just couldn't. Although im a bit different as my weight is at the lower end of healthy, but then again doctors generally don't suspect anything until your on deaths door. I'm starting to feel like I should just lose loads of weight so that someone will notice and help but obviously that isn't a great strategy...

[parentin5]

Talking to your doctor while you are at the lower end of healthy is better than waiting until you have an issue and need to gain loads of weight. Obviously the sooner it is addressed the better. I hope you will consider talking to your gp soon.