Anyone else disappointed in themself?

[AngelinaAstarte]

I was really proud of my body for a long time. I worked out everyday and I ate healthy; not even starving, but I was very obsessed with it and would starve myself the next day if I had even dared to go over my calorie limit. That's when shit got bad. When I was maintaining my weight at about 2000 calories I started binging for some reason. Then I would starve myself for a week because of the weight I THOUGHT I had gained. The past 3 months I have been so full of stess and anxiety. I felt like I was isolating myself from the world by constantly working out and being alone all the time than I started binging. I feel like I can't get myself together and now I actually need to lose some weight to get back down to where I was... I just keep binging because of the stress. It use to be so easy to not eat and now it's not. I just feel like pounds keep coming on. I don't even want to look a my bloated body. I feel disgusting and disappointed in myself. I just want to stop.

[weightlessrunner]

Starving leads to binging.

[AngelinaAstarte]

I know it does. I should have known better when I was maintaining.. but now I actually need to lose weight. :[

[elzie]

Yeah. Last year I reached my goal of LOSING 120lbs I was proud but couldn't see it....now I've put loads back on and I'm so fucking disappointed.

[Heaven20]

All the time. I feel mixed feelings when I loose and disgust when I gain. It's complicated but you know how it is, I'm sure.
I hope you feel better soon honeypie x

[nightbrine]

Yep, especially since I'm trying so hard to transition to raw vegan. Recently had lost about 6 pounds through juicing, then gained it back in the past 7 days from going on a cooked food binge. Not only do I feel "filthy" on the inside from all the garbage I put in my body, but now I feel huge again. It's shit like this that keeps me from leaving the house for months at a time.