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06-16-2012 #11Junior Member
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Misanthropist, I don't think it means you're a terrible person, at least I hope not. Sometimes the only shred of validation I can find for myself is to surround myself with my heavier friends who I know are bigger than me. It's embarrassing and makes me feel desperate but I try to remember it's the f***ed up part of me doing it, not the real me.
I actually would rather not know, only because I believe I will generally weigh more than them. Sometimes being 'triggered' doesn't equal motivation for me, just more apathy and depression. I feel as though I will never lose weight because i'm stuck in my current crazy EDNOS habits, and so discovering that someone weighs less than me just brings me down even more.“Doctor, you don't know what it is to doubt everything, even yourself. No, you don't; you couldn't with eyebrows like yours.”
― Bram Stoker, Dracula
I'm always trying to figure out peoples weight/bmi too. I almost failed my English class because my teacher was so tiny and I would spend the entire class period studying her and wondering why I can't be that small. I feel so terrible because I'm constantly judging people but I don't like to be judged myself.
I always do that mostly my friends all weigh more then me, and it's pretty comforting. If anyone is skinnier then me it really bothers me, and i try to figure out how much they weigh in a very obsessive manner.The devil's language taste of lust
Not really, because most of my friends are taller than I, and their weights won't necesarily represent the same for me.
I do want to know what one of my friends did and how much she's weighting now because she used to be really fat, my age and my height... and now I see her pics and she is really thin (more thin than I'm!!!)!!! I'm not that close anymore, so I can't directly ask her whether she got a ballon in her stomach or simply lot of motivaton and slef control :/
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I try to do this ... all the time. I find it really annoying that I cannot shut it off. It's constant!
All my friends are heavier than me too (but not intentionally; I just made it my goal to be skinnier than the skinniest of them, it's not like I specifically picked them out because they were fat or something). What I have noticed is, they're actually worse for me: they constantly tell me, bitterly and full of disgust, how skinny I am and it just makes me feel so, so much worse.
You know, though, it doesn't matter that much how much they weigh, just how they look. Two people can have the same weight and look completely different.we're hungry, beware of our appetite
At school in the weights room there's a scale right near one of the machines, and I sneak a peek at whoever is on it. Mostly the tiny girls who weigh about 100 pounds at 5'6", and then go whine to their friends about how they're sooo fat. I resist the urge to bitch them out.
i like to know people's weight more because i am trying to know how i look, i have a distorted image of myself and when i find out my friend has the same size jeans as me or bigger i realize for a split second i am not as huge as i think i am
I was at my friend's house one time and she left a pair of her jeans on the floor in her bedroom. I totally HAD to look at the size. Then, I Googled how much a person would weigh with that pant size (much, much larger than mine, so I had no basis of comparison). I felt so weird. Then, my sneaky way is to ask (of my closer friends, of course) bra size. I feel like that's a more normal thing to talk about rather than waist/hip/BMI/body fat percentage, at least among girls. I find it very telling... GAH! It makes me feel creepy!!