Don't know what has happened

[LRT]

I have fallen off the recovery wagon, I'm not even pushing myself to eat what I should be eating, as agreed at my last session. I feel there is no urgency to get back on the recovery wagon,

Now normally if I had a slip I would be eager to get back on track, I would be crying my eye's out and really pushing myself wanting to get back on track but not this time.

I really do not understand or know what has happened.

I am back to see my psychologist on Tuesday and have nothing recovery wise to tell her, not even sure if it worth me going to be honest as I have nothing to say to her

[awake]

I'd encourage you to keep going.

I have also hit this place where my heart's not in recovery and I show up and pass over my food diary with a shrug or bad joke.

I still find it (mostly) helpful to go see my t. It keeps me from isolating and we can talk about pressing things in my life that are contributing to my reluctance to fight the ed. If we don't talk about the ed itself.

I believe there's still hope for us yet. No matter how far we think we've fallen. Hang in there.

[StudyingALot]

I've been backsliding as well, especially since I took a trip this weekend and it was just so /easy/ being out of the routine and all...and now this week my stupid boss scheduled me to work during my appointment even though he knows I have something important to do every Wednesday afternoon!

But anyway, yeah. You should go. Talking helps. Being honest helps, since I at least am usually not honest with myself. Go since I can't, k?

[fruit-loop]

Don't give up LRT!!! Bad times are inevitable... This is fu&#ing tough shit But we gotta go through the bad/tough/crappy in order to recognise the good/better times. Our therapists are 'supposed' to accept & support us through... you're not doing anyone any favors by only going to therapy when you feel like you're on top of things! I do KNOW how hard this is... I often feel like I'm just going through the motions myself... putting one foot infront of the other... one meal at a time... but as long as I keep on going!
Don't give up, you're doing so good! Hang on in there! Big hugs x