i just dont understand

[dawnisgone]

since ive started treating my body better ive gained and im a little more than i healthy weight. it hasnt bothered me much all this time but today of all days im getting ready to go to a superbowl party, tried on everything in my closet, all of it shows ever disgusting ounce. ive fallen back to tshirts and holey jeans. how could i possibly go from counting every calorie and self harming when i fail to this disgusting pile in just 13 months. this has to stop now. i feel so hopeless. needless to say i will not be leaving the house today. sorry i just had to let this out. i reached out to my husband about this. his response? when life gives you lemons..keep em! theyre free lemons. fml. again im sorry i just had to vent.

[haifisch]

Don't let Ed be part of your day today!
No matter what you try on the Ed will tell you how fat, how wrong, how ugly, how blah blah blah you are.
Just accept that your body is the motor of how you get around this earth to enjoy your life. Grant yourself some respect and enjoy your day of celebration and socialization.

Choose an outfit, and don't let Ed have a say.

Be strong darling. You're worth it.

[dawnisgone]

thank you so very very much!!! i really needed to hear it and didnt even realize it until i read it ) thank you