I hate everything.
I hate how when I go to school wherever I sit , everybody around me moves at least 2ft away in every direction.
I hate how I try so hard to make friends but they are never there when it really counts.
I hate how I waste so much food.
I hate how even my online friends hate me now too.
I hate how when I look in the mirror all I can do is cry because my body is disgusting
I hate how I'll sit alone , and somebody will come up and for a brief moment I think they are going to sit next to me but then they just take the chair and scoot away like everybody else.
I hate how all my mom wants is for me to be happy and I can't even give her that.
I hate how I'm so afraid to be alone.
I hate myself.
I hate people.


I feel like nothing is real anymore , how everything is disappearing into this black hole. I feel like I'm going to wake up and my life will be like a Shutter Island movie. I'll find out I've been a patient in an institution , and all my family died and all of this is just a figment of my imagination. Fuck this. Why did I even write this...pointless crap

Rant over