I feel... like crying constantly, and I just wish I could not wake up tomorrow. I hate myself, I hate my friends (even though they are lovely and deserve better), I hate my teachers, and I hate my family. I just feel so... sad. I don't even know the word to use. when i walk into an empty room I just immediately break down. I've recently started self injuring myself again, and having trouble sleeping, and lashing out. I hate life.

In fact I don't even hate life. I feel nothing for it and wish it were just over.

And the messed up thing is, I GENUINELY think not eating will make me feel better. I JUST FEEL SO BAD NOW AND I'M SO ANGRY! I wish I had more words to explain how I feel but... I wish I something besides this stupid website to cry to.