Does it always end in a binge?

[happytapeworm]

This isn't really the case for me , because eating isn't all that fun for me and I know if i binge I WILL purge which just isn't an option .

[peace.love.starving]

For me, I'm either eating "normally" (for me, that's between 1200-1400 calories a day) or restricting. When I restrict, I strictly eat no more than 300 calories a day. When I restrict, I restrict for months, and I get myself in to such a hole that I just do not slip up. I just don't.

When I fast, I find it INCREDIBLY hard to break my fast. There is absolutely no way I could bring myself to break a fast with a binge; I find it hard enough to break a fast with a cup a soup. The longer I fast, the harder it is to bring myself out of it.

The thing that switches me from restricting to normal is a hospital admission or something scary happening to my health, ie a seizure, or surgery, or something along those lines. And then I'll be triggered by something that makes me restrict again; sometimes I'll realise it, and sometimes, it'll totally blindside me and I'll realise what I've been doing.

That's exactly what happens with me I'll go for months only eating 300-500 cals per day and then my "binge" is maybe I'll eat one hostess snack cake or eat normally for a whole day. I feel horrible after that happens.

[karlamorgan]

It always ends in a binge. Or at least overeating. I expect it to happen, and sometimes even plan it. Once my body has been in starvation mode, even the tiniest "unsafe" food I elect to put in my mouth, the physical craving and urge to eat overtakes me and I end up eating more than I intend. I don't purge either, so the fact that I can't get rid of it all makes me dread when it happens even more.

This is how I am too. After lengths of restriction all it takes is one bite of a tortilla chip, or one scoop of cookie dough, or one piece of pizza to trigger me into a binge. I'm working really hard to increase the length of time between binges, though. Two weeks is my longest period of strict restriction so far.

[cyber_sam]

For me, I'm either eating "normally" (for me, that's between 1200-1400 calories a day) or restricting. When I restrict, I strictly eat no more than 300 calories a day. When I restrict, I restrict for months, and I get myself in to such a hole that I just do not slip up. I just don't.

Hmm.. I wonder if that levels out to be the same calories. I really just want a period where I'm eating "normally" like that, roughly 1500 calories a day. It's either restrict, or binge and purge. Maybe eating "normally" for a prolonged period of time in the place of bingeing and purging on, like, a weekend, would mean I could binge and purge less often. I think that would be less detrimental to my health.