Help without hospital?

[PrettyLies]

Hi guys. I've never really posted in the recovery section, because I've never really considered recovery.

I'm in this support group if you wanna call it that, for like depression, self injury, addiction, suicide, earing disorders, etc. Well we did this line game thing where there's a line, and someone says a question or scenario, and if you've dealt with or experienced it, then you walk across. It takes a lot of balls. Well, there was one about eating disorders, and I impulsively felt the courage to cross, and I did. Luckily, I wasn't the only one and as soon as I crossed I was emerged in hugs. It was weird and awkward but immensely relieving at the same time. I'm happy I did it in a place of acceptance rather than a bad place.

Afterwards no one really said much or confronted me personally, but I'm kind of expecting someone to say something sometime soon. But, for the first time, I really realized, "Hey, I've had this for almost 2 years..I don't want to be this way my whole life." It's been up and down, and I've never been diagnosed with something, so I guess just ednos? I think I'm subconciously making a switch to an orthoretic type thing where I'm more focused on healthy things than quantity...I'd rather eat more healthy and natural things than repeated cycles of fasting and bingeing. I've also never been underweight, so I've never had extreme health issues either. It's mainly my mentality towards food and my body image is incredibly messed up. I see food as an enemy rather than a necessity. But with all this said..I wonder if there's a way to slowly get help, without a hospital or psychologist. I hate hate hate hospitals, and plus, going to some sort of treatment program isn't what I want or need in my life right now...though also, I eventually want to get better...idk. I'm sort of all wishy washy at the moment.

[iwant2recover]

It AWESOME that your even thinking about how to recover Keep in mind, you don't have to have a weight problem to have an eating disorder. There are lot's of people who look like an average weight who have serious ed's. In my experience, I don't know anyone could recover from an ed without professional help. I'm sure it's been done, but it seems unnecessarily difficult. Keep thinking about what you want to do and maybe consider a professional. Good luck

[PrettyLies]

Thank you. Idk. I think I really need to figure it out first, because I feel like if I make a decision like that without being sure about it, it would be pointless. idk I'm kind of wishy washy in general about a lot of things right now, so I need to get both feet on the ground, ya know?

[iwant2recover]

Definitley. Take your time thinking about what you want to do. It's a commitment and you have to want it. But if you do decide you want to recover, don't hesitate to go to your GP or find a psychologist or psychiatrist.