Does Anyone Else Ever Feel This Way? TW

[driven2change]

I've become so fed up with everything around me that it has begun to affect my relationships with most of the people around me. I haven't been responding to most calls, or text messages, except those of my family. I barely leave my room, unless I have class or my fat ass leaves to the nearest convenience store to grab food to binge on. I've been feeling unusually low lately, and I haven't been able to shake it. I think it's been about a week now, I'm not positive, but it feel like it's been a WHILE since I've been in this mood.

My point is, I think this whole separation from the world thing has gotten so deep that now I'm scared to socialize with anyone...to basically continue where I had left off. I just don't know what to say to anyone anymore. I guess I'm scared to say the wrong things? I reflect excessively on my actions and interactions with other people...on what I could have or should have done or said. So I guess that I just don't want to say the wrong thing and give my mind more things to think about. My head already feels like it's about to explode and I just don't need anymore pressure; I don't want to focus on anything else but myself- I'm my safe zone...if I go beyond that I start losing it. So I've been trying to relax and take it easy lately. And now I'm like scared to jump back into the social circle again. I don't want to I'd rather not, I'd rather just keep to myself and continue to do what I'm doing. I don't want to get hurt again.

I don't know what to say what to do, I just wanna lay in my bed all day and never leave. :/

[Tapanga]

I'm going through something like that now. Difference is that I'm ignoring everyone. Family included.
But dont you think when you're alone that you'll have time to think about//just things. I'm learning more and more about myself when I'm alone.
And my social circle ended looooong ago when I realized NO ONE was there for me. but yeah. If you need a bud, PM me. I'm there for you. <3

[penggwin]

i go through this once/twice a month, so i understand where you're coming from<3
it's difficult, so, so difficult.. but sometimes you have to hold your breathe and just.. do it. do it without thinking about it, because the more you think about it, the scarier it becomes and the more you think about it. i know everyone is different, so maybe that doesn't work for you.. i don't know.. that's the way i have to do it.
you should never think you're going to say "the wrong things" because you won't.. you're saying your opinion and what you think of things and if certain people can't handle that, then they need to simply fuck off.
i'm here for you if you need help<3