I Give Up!!!!

[Kiwiangel]

I give up!!!!
After a year of treatment in a south london outpaitent treatment, I am no better actually worse! I now use laxatives, cut and purge (I never did any of those before)
I rang the treatment centre as I was really struggling and hadn't eaten much in 3 weeks. My therapist called back and called me the wrong name! It really upset me, it's not the first time she has gotten me confused.
I weigh too much for inpaitent and I have really tried to get better and eat regularly, I have gone to the bank for a loan for private inpaitent but they wouldn't give it to me.
Now I feel like all I can do is get down to 80 pounds and then maybe I'll get the help i need!
I feel desperate and really let down and scared that I will never be sick enough for help and this cycle will continue forever or until I die however that may be.
My job is on the line if i don't get better soon they have said they will give me paid leave for residential treatment if I can organise a place.

I feel stuck, everyone wants me to get better and I'm trying but i cant seem to get the right help.

Anyone else in the same situation?

ANyone else have any advice?
I live in south London and I'm over 30

[KoH.]

I'm sorry to hear about their lack of professional help. I don't think i've heard any good things about treatment centres, and when i watch programmes on how they run it, i get so angry about how they do it. I think you'd be better off trying to help yourself. I wouldn't go by me though, still look for help if you think it will work for you, this is just how i feel.

Never give up. If this was easy, we'd all be healthy. You sound like you're a very strong person to just give up, if you don't mind me saying!

[Victorian Fantasy]

I've had that experience with an inpatient center before. I wasn't underweight and was still getting my period so they turned me away. How long have you been seeing this therapist? If you aren't getting the help you need I would suggest trying to find someone else. Finding a therapist that you connect with is a terribly daunting task but once you find someone that you click with it's worth it.