Ever feel guilty for eating safe foods? Possible TW

[CeriM]

So today I've been really good, only had 600 cals.
But this includes a whole Punet of strawberries tonight, along with 3 apples and a piece of watermelon.
I feel so full and feel like purging even though their safe foods. But I feel guilty going to bed with
A full stomach. Only feel satisfied when I go bed hungry. Anyone else felt this before?

[scout]

Yeah, this happens to me when I get into my really restrictive phases... It's the worst and I really have no advice to give you, I don't really know how to deal with it myself. Hope you feel better!! xx

[KoH.]

yeh, an awful lot lately. my rule ive set since it began was to not purge fruit or veg but im finding it so hard not to. ive had a bowl of veg tonight and im trying to distract my feelings with a film.. i just wish online films buffer less

[kittycat]

Every time! I'' am really sick of this. I keep teling myself it will make your body better, not fatter, you need some noutrients, but yea again maia/ana wins.

[CeriM]

I hate it cos I'm trying my hardest to be healthy. But it's like I can only go to bed hungry to feel like when I wake up and weigh in I will have lost. If I feel full I won't dare weigh myself in the morning which I hate doing cos it triggers me to b/p
Plus purging fruit is one of the worse!!! Ugh acid!!!!
Hate mia/ana too!!! But determined to win!!! Not purging, icant

[Aeriya]

I feel like this A LOT. I know a BIG part of it is the feeling of being FULL more than anything...regardless of what it is. Obviously being full of veggies is WAY different than say, a Big Mac but my brain still kicks into panic mode
Going through that panic mode right now actually: was pretty much guilt-force-fed broccoli slaw and tomato sauce (our take on carb-free pasta) and I just feel absolutely grotesque and bloated ...Mom's still home so can't purge - waiting for laxatives to kick in *sigh*

This has legit taken over my mind entirely.

[pudgey2]

I can't even take celery any more, I'm attempting fighting and trying to atleast eat veggies but it is hard. I hate food in my stomach and I love being empty. My bmi has dropped to like 13.5-14 depending on the day latley because of it.

[NightMerryGoRound]

I've been staring at a apple once for over 30 minutes, trying to decide wether it was worth the calories, or if the class would talk a lot, so noone would hear my stomach grumbling. My friend noticed and laughed at me, because she found it funny that I made a big deal out of an apple. Ended up eating it, because my friend was right that it's just ridiculous to stress about an apple.

many other times, I didn't eat the apple though.

[Girl, Interrupted]

I feel guilty about eating anything. Hell I feel guilty about the maize starch in my calcium supplement.

[lemonsorbet]

Yea completely.. lately ive been unable to even have celery and cottage cheese down.. then when the realisation im going to purge anyway kicks in.. i just eat loads of other stuff. ugggh.