Recognising Disordered Eating

[xXxXx]

As time goes on I find myself taking my ED less seriously.
Maybe it's because it's become the norm but I feel like it's not so bad whereas initially I recognised it as a massive problem.
When I take a step back and think about it properly I realise that it is killing me but I don't seem to think about that often.
Sometimes I think I find it easier to brush aside because I'm not underweight and I occasionally eat "normally". But then at the same time that occasionally eating normally is not normal.
Has anyone else kind of have to remind themselves that their eating habits are not normal and has this become more of an issue as times gone by?

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[Mianis]

I am recovered from anorexia. I believe I still suffer from an ED though. I go through a cycle of restricting and losing 2-6 lbs, then eating more to gain MOST of it back, then losing again. I'm afraid it will lead to a relapse so I'm constantly trying to encourage myself not to restrict, especially when I was maintaining so well and eating so good for a month. I have to remind myself what I am doing is not normal behaviour. I know I should tell someone but it's hard..

[LosingMyself]

It really hits home for me when someone comments on what I'm eating or how I'm eating and says "that's not normal.". It usually sends me into a flurry of self doubt and re-evaluation of my habits.

It's so easy to lose track of what normal is...

[stories]

I have the small bit of a logical side in my head that knows what I am doing isn't good for me. But sometimes I just shrug it off and find nothing wrong. Even if I am taking to people who know more about nutrition an health than I do, I still sometimes shrug off their comments and advice. I need to remind myself constantly that this is not normal. Because I know if I keep thinking nothing is wrong this could get worse.

I also have the issue of being at a normal weight and eating normally sometimes. But I know weight isn't the deciding factor here. And the fact that I do not eat normally (what is that anyway?) all the time is cause for concern.

Unfortunately, the logical side is not the dominant side.

[Mc1423]

I also have the issue of being at a normal weight and eating normally sometimes. But I know weight isn't the deciding factor here. And the fact that I do not eat normally (what is that anyway?) all the time is cause for concern.

Unfortunately, the logical side is not the dominant side.

This! This is exactly how I get around it. I flip back and forth constantly between thinking I have a massive problem and thinking that I'm going through a dumb phase just like I'd like to believe, but I don't think phases like this last for two years.

[xXxXx]

Thanks for your replies.
Nice to know other people feel the same. I guess you just have to stop and take a step back now and then. I don't want to completely convince myself that it's not an issue.
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[eau]

my boyfriend who knows about my issues with food... kind of talks about it nonchalantly.
like he will be like... "i wish you liked food so we could go out to eat" instead of being concerned that i dont eat much

and then i feel like since i dont look sick, i must be normal and eat normally since im not thin like i used to be..
so i dont eat all day at work and then i come home and binge or i restrict for days and exercise heavily...
but theres nothing wrong with me.

it's like him going out and getting drunk every night and then claiming hes not an alcoholic when he is.
i starve myself and then eat uncontrollably and i say im not an eating disordered person but i am..?

[angel01]

me toooooo! eff EDNOS, serioously. Im normal weight range but yet i never eat over 500 calories and occasionally throw up food and im also a chronic weigher( seriously like 15 times a day) and i always exercise off half of the calories i eat but yet lately ive started to consider my disorder somewhat of not even a disorder. I feel lke my brain just needs to feel special or be in constant misery so i am "making up" an ed. but lets be real none of the behaviors i listed above are normal. yet to me most days im like hmmm nothing weird here.

[xXxXx]

^^^^^^
This is exactly what I mean.
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[angel01]

isnt it so annoying how back and forth our brains can be! lol i drive myself insane with back and forth stuff all day long!