Support!! Tw!!

[driven2change]

I just epically failed at another diet. My academic record sucks, I'm fat and can't seem to lose the weight, I'm obsessive compulsive, depressed...I've got no friends, just got fired from my first job, I'll never go to medical school, I can never play soccer again with my permanently fucked up knee, I have fucked up eating habits, I'm ugly, pathetic, hopeless, and tonight I'm very suicidal.

I can never do anything right- I fail at everything that comes my way. I keep setting myself up for failure and disappointment by deciding to give another possible day a shot. And when I fail, I feel like shit...I hate feeling like shit, nobody likes feeling like shit. So what's the point of me continuing to try, if everyday I feel like shit?

I'm so fucking hopeless and stupid; I'm so pathetic I can list everything that I like about myself on half a fucking hand. What the fuck is wrong with me?? This can't be intentional, I'm a mistake, there's nothing significant about me. I'm a freaking shadow- invisible...what difference would it make if I didn't exist. NONE.

My spiritual life is a mess, my social life is a mess, home life is a mess, my academic life is a mess...everything is a MESS! AN UNFIX-ABLE MESS! I can't do it anymore!!

It's so easy. In an instant I can be gone. I honestly don't know if I can let myself "give it another shot" again. I feel numb and oddly calm right now...I have no idea what I'm gonna do next. I just don't trust myself.

I NEED SUPPORT!! Before I do something stupid!

[sparkleandfade]

I feel this EXACT same way right now. I have been feeling suicidal and insane lately too, but I always try my hardest to remember the quote "It will always be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end." I believe in this. My cousin killed himself and I watched it absolutely destroy his entire family. If you can't think of any reasons to live, think of your family and how entirely ruined they would be for the rest of their lives. Get some help hun. We are all here for you!!!! Keep it mind that it's always darkest before the dawn. And I know it may seem like you will never see light or be happy again, but it will happen. You just have to take that first step and talk to a therapist or professional. Stay strong dear, you can do this!!!! *hugsssss*

[Strigis]

Oh my god, i feel the same and EXACTLY the same things are happening to me.

[driven2change]

Thanks guys, I really appreciate xoxo good luck to you both