Been trying and trying
Trying so hard
I keep on slipping up
Eating and still loosing
But I reached the end of my rope
And now I'm failing and falling once again
I joined this site to maybe snap myself out of it
Maybe find someone to talk me around
But now...I think it's too late'
Too late for change
Too late for redemption
Too late to be saved

I can hear you all laughing at me
Inside my head
The hatered is expected
Cause it always comes my way
All this maddness
Will surely be the end of me

I wish I could just drift up high
Floating above the world
Gliding through the clouds
Where nothing can hurt me
Self-inflicted isolated
I only wanted a friend
Brings me down again

When they leave me alone
It hurts
When they act like they care
I don't believe it
Most of my life consists of pain
Justified pain or the created pain inside my head
I can never win
Only loose

No one would really miss me
So don't pretend you will
I can only create hurt
I always sub-conciously find it
The darkness in the light
The hate in love
I can only see the bad things
Nothing shines for me anymore
Even music(my fav thing) makes me angry


I am not meant to be



PS: don't bother replying, I'll be in the daisy fields before any of you do anyway