My Husband is Divorcing me..

[MoonEcho]

So, my husband is divorcing me and there is really nothing I can do about it. My hometown is in Maryland and I recently moved to Missouri a year ago. I have no family or friends out here and my husband has been moved out for almost 2 weeks now.

I have no money to buy any type of groceries or food for myself so I am basically only eating rice and saltine crackers.

As you can imagine, I have started to lose weight. This divorce is the most painful thing that I have ever had to experience and I can just SEE myself slipping into my anorexia again. I'm already only 100-103 pounds NORMALLY at 5'5" at 20 years old. I like this and I like that I am losing weight. Not going to lie. But because of this painful, traumatic event in my life, I can just see this spiraling so out of control.

I will be moving back to Maryland within a week. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this? I know a lot of girls on here are still in high school but if there are any married anorexic folks out there that could maybe give me some advice?

[Clarice_Starling]

I am 27, not married, but have been through traumas that are sort of what you are going through now...I was evicted twice, I mean, with the police showing up and throwing my shit on the street with no car and no place to go and family disowned me in mid January in Georgia dead winter type of eviction in the midst of my anorexia...it caused my ED to get worse...MUCH WORSE, any trauma I believe does. What I would advise, is to get some sort of free mental help before it gets worse...and it will. Why is he divorcing you? You know, if you fight back, you can get more considering your the woman...however, it does depend on how long you've been married.

[amazon626]

I'm not married or anorexic, actually, but I think the most important thing you need right now is a network of support. Friends, family, anyone and everyone who can help you out and make sure you come through this ok. A divorce in and of itself is hard enough without having to deal with an eating disorder flaring up out of control on top of it.

[Lady Persephone]

Well, I AM married and anorexic, and I have to say . . . *sigh* I would probably be in the same straits you are in, and I would be enjoying it, too, on a really sick level . . . not gonna lie either . . . I moved out of my parent's house when I was 27 years old, much to their chagrin, on the basis that I had a full time job finally, my first. I was barely making any money at all, but I was so excited to move out and finally have them all off my back. I was really secretly living with my now husband. He was helping to pay my rent and bills and all that stuff . . . he really had no idea about what I was really doing to myself, still doesn't. I think about the day he might find out about me, in the full sense of what I really am . . . he might leave me, almost did once. I know if I had a job still, I would carry on living alone, but if not . . . god help me I'd have to move back in with my parents (who still see my like a 12-year-old).

I don't think I have any really good advice to give you, but I can say from my heart that I understand you. Just hold on . . . anorexia isn't a setback, it can be a real strength. Just let it carry you through.

(( ((MoonEcho)) ))