Read this i'm not bullshitting you guys

[metalmaniac333]

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Stay strong and keep hope close to your hearts
No matter how much the darkness consumes us
We must grab hold of hope
Hold on with all of our might
Because the forces of this world will defiantly attempt to steal it away
You must reach out as far as you can
And never let go of the belief that most of you a deserve better life
A full life
A life that you can look back on on your deathbeds
And have no regrets
That is my wish
For all of you to (eventually) see the light once more
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One day
We will all be free
No more will obsessions
No more need to control
Sadly I don't believe this world will ever be rid of mental illness
(I mean look around, even the ones who call themselves "normal" are crazy on at least some level.)
So all I do
Is try to be there for people who just need to talk
Or to bitch
Or to talk stats
Whatever
Because no one was ever there for me
And I know what it's like
to spend months in hospital
and not get so much as a txt
(no shit)
Thinking your worthless
Nothing
That everyone you know is talking about you behind your back...
It doesn't have to be this way
You just have to remember
That most "normal" people can't even comprehend this illness
They find out you have an ED
And most people tend to just run for the hills
You just have to remember
It isn't us
Took me a while to realise this
I was blaming myself for people not bothering contacting me for years...
(in all honestesty I still do but I have come with terms with and now I just don't care...AT ALL)

But anyway back to before
Any of you
See my profile name as a constant support line
I want to be there for you
For all you
(despite the fact I have no friends, shutup, I just joined, used to be part of PT)

And I'm not saying I can fix anything, cause I can't
But I'll try
I can only give you guys my word on that.

PS: I have hardcore insomnia(been awake almost 96 hrs straight, not tired at all) so I'm usually online
Unless goddamn telecom is fucking with my internet connection like they have been continuously for the last while.

GRR I wanted to end on something meaningful....
Finally thought of it...

My goal is to give you all of the little kindness I have left for humanity in my soul
My want is to give you guys some form of relief from the hurt and the pain and the oh so destructive thoughts
My greatest desire is to be an online friend who's always there for you(when on)


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[elzie]

yawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwn.

[f-g]

yawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwn.

Agreed.......

[GreedvsNeed]

*chirping grasshopper*

(maybe this should go into the creativity corner?)