What am I...?

[happytapeworm]

Before I used to think I was straight....then I thought I was a lesbian. As I recall though I never felt a sexual attraction for either , it was more like an admiration or envy. I was in a relationship with a guy not too long ago , he always wanted to kiss or touch and I don't know I just didn't like it. It's not that he was a bad guy , we were like best friends before we dated and he cared for me a great deal. I just felt...disgusted by him , I never wanted to be touched and in some way that's what ended the relationship..
I'm starting to think that I am a-sexual , but that doesn't really fit either since I like the idea of companionship and being with somebody...Grr I feel just so confused..

[Lichen]

Have you looked at AVEN's website? Many forum members describe themselves as bi/homo/hetero -affectionate or -romantic, and preferred terms include varying degrees of asexuality. Speaking as a nonaffectionate, gray asexual, bidyke, in a concurrent polyamorous relationship with two straight-identified men, I know you want a direction more than a label. Be honest with yourself (without overanalyzing) around potential love interests and see where intention takes you, however cliched the advice sounds. Otherwise you'll drive yourself crazy wondering what you should be feeling instead of paying attention to what you _are_ feeling.

[happytapeworm]

Have you looked at AVEN's website? Many forum members describe themselves as bi/homo/hetero -affectionate or -romantic, and preferred terms include varying degrees of asexuality. Speaking as a nonaffectionate, gray asexual, bidyke, in a concurrent polyamorous relationship with two straight-identified men, I know you want a direction more than a label. Be honest with yourself (without overanalyzing) around potential love interests and see where intention takes you, however cliched the advice sounds. Otherwise you'll drive yourself crazy wondering what you should be feeling instead of paying attention to what you _are_ feeling.

I hadn't until you mentioned it ): thank you so much! This has been really helpful!!

[elzie]

oh baaaabe who gives a fuck ! :P go with whatever you like I had sex with pretty girls cos I liked them. I have a gorgeous boyfriend cos I love him. Go with whatever you do, we're not perfect. There isn't a book that tells you who you'll marry so just go with the flow of your heart. I know I sound like a fucking guru, but it's true on this one <3