My poems. TW

[Dezzie]

Ocean of Pain
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Lost in the black sea,
The water freezes you,
From the inside out,
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A light beacon,
They're trying to save you,
But you just keep going deeper and deeper,
*
Your lungs feel like bursting,
Your vision is going black,
Your brain is shutting down,
*
Life is escaping you,
It steals your last breath,
Your last thought,
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Captured by Poseidon,
He holds you tight,
And curses the world.

Living A Lie

I tell these lies,
The ones that live my life,
The ones that make you happy,
They're killing me,
From the inside out,
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Why?
I'm scared,
Show you my real self,
I think not,
The tears you'd shed,
The pain I would cause,
Not worth it,
So I'll live with this pain,
Make you happy,
Forget myself,
Make you happy,
Lose myself,
Make you happy,
No tears I'll show,

Only at my weakest time,
Maybe one might slip though,
My shield might crack,
And you'd get,
A looking glass into my soul,

What a splendid time you'll have,
Swimming in my sadness,
My wish to fade away


Ruby Red
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Twisting and twirling till she covers my arms,
Laughing as she gives my wrist deep kisses,
Leaving her red lipstick every where but where it belongs,

She leaves me,*
Yearning for more,
I'm addicted to her,
Her bright red lips,
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Her cool skin matched that burning mouth,
She's pure bliss,
Until she says "Were done",
*
She leaves me,
Needing more,
Addiction turns to overdose,
And all I can see are,
Her bright red lips.*


Crazies

These walls, I built them for you,
These tears, I cried for you,
This life, I live for you,
Now I must die for you too.

My life, in your hands
My mind, a puzzle for you to figure out

My heart, is forever yours
Your warmth, Brings me to life
Your voice, Just like heroin

These walls, I built them for you,
These tears, I cried for you,
This life, I live for you,
Now I must die for you too.

Are you ready?
For the real world.
I cannot survive,
Without you,
Yet with me,
You cannot live your life.

My mind, it reels you in
It 's quiet enticing isn't it?
To watch the effects of life,
Upon my fragile mental state.

These walls, I built them for you,
These tears, I cried for you,
This life, I live for you,
Now I must die for you too.

Yet these walls,
They drive me crazy,
The tears, create questions,
This life, causes pain,

The ultimate aspirin,
Heard of it?
It's something that may sound crazy,
Death,


Safe

A cold hard concrete wall,
Between me and the world,
People try to chip it away,
I simply reinforce it,
They say they feel,
Out of the loop,
I think,
I like it that way.

Too much pain,
Behind closed doors,
Too many tears,
Holding me back,
Still,
A voice inside,
It tells me,
"This isn't
Right"

A Bright light,
In this mess,
A chance,
Brings me to life,
For an hour,
Each week.

It guides me,
To a better place,
To a happier me,
Away from the,
Blade.

[Dezzie]

Not sure why * appears randomly, sorry bout that

[Dezzie]

Love sucks


I don't wanna be in love,

I don't need to be in love,

So I'll go and find somebody,

And just dance the the night away,

I'll let my life go,

And just dance,

With him.

The bass,

Runs through the building,

Though our shoes,

And into our cores,

Moving and twisting,

Feeling again.

Our bodies,

Packed so tightly,

In this small room,

Everyone,

Moving together,

Moving closer,

Moving faster.

Lights flash,

World pauses,

Stops for a second,

Lasers bounce from wall to wall,

From Eye to Eye.

Heat pulses,

From the crowd,

Melting those feelings,

Of loss and hate,

Of loneliness.

Trying to let the music,

To let it take over,

To force out the memories,

To forget him,

To lose this fight.

Fog fills the air,

Fills my lungs,

I can't breath,

I can't think,

I can't do this.

Through the dark,

Into the cold,

Into the street,

The boy,

He follows me,

He wants to know if I'm okay.

The cold concrete against my back,

Real,

Real as the pounding,

In my heart,

In my mind,

As real as my eternal pain.

[Dezzie]

Bright red, soft pulsing crimson.

The sound of the skin parting,

So quiet, but my body feels every sound.

I need arms around me,

But I seem to be too cold for love,

Not a single person would kiss me,

Care for me the way I crave,

No one, but my razor blade.