The Realisation...

[Whodathunkit]

I have only recently been diagnosed with BED and hadnt even considered it before.

My partner made me realise something was wrong when he came home from work and I had literally eaten us both out of house and home and he was so upset that i had eaten everything that he told me he was going to get a lockable box to keep some food away from me.

this broke my heart and i really did know then i had a problem.

when did you realise you had a problem?

[MuffintopRhi]

when I realised that I'd started spending twice as much money on food every week because I was going to sainsbury's nearly every night to buy junk food then stuff my face...

[TenStone]

When I realised my drawer at work was full of snacks and I would eat my lunch sandwiches right after breakfast.

[TheQuietDoll]

When I ate all the things in my friend's pantry and her mother yelled at her.

[becauseittastesgood]

When I lived at home with my parents and had to sneak food in odd places. I knew I had a problem the moment I felt the cold crinkly poptart wrappers against my crotch (yes, I'd shoved them down my underwear!) and walked passed my mother to my room in fear, hoping she wouldn't find out.

[elzie]

I realised I had a problem this time round when I ate raw sausages because I was so hungry.

[Acheramee]

The first time that I ate so much, I was depserate enough to look up on the internet how to purge

[iwant2recover]

My First realization was when I started failing my classes at university because I was so weak from not eating, I could hardly make it to school.
My second realization was when I purged simply because of the physical pain I was in from all the food in my stomach.
My third realization was when I started stealing food from my roommates to binge on, and then lie about it.
Yea, it took me many realizations before I truly stepped up and asked for help.

[dawnisgone]

ive ALWAYS had weight issues, when i was younger i could go walk around the block, do anything, was at my thinnest and most fit ever. had a baby and due to no one being able to watch her and being too embarrassed to admit im inhappy with my weight to my husband i never get a chance to exercise anymore cause she is ALWAYS standing under my feet in the house or trying to run through the woods outside i dont know how else to keep her occupied while i exercise unless i duct taped her to the celing fan (that was a joke). im willing to have my jaw wired shut, spend DAYS on a treadmill, whatever it takes, only healthy food is in the house but im sure eating 700 calories worth of light yogurt in one sitting is still not normal. i have a problem. i deserve every harsh thing anyone says about my weight. i did it to myself. i feel so hopeless and alone