How is it even possible to eat THIS much?

[Imperfectxx]

This is what happens when i'm home alone. I ate:
Breakfast: muesli w 2 Weet Bix, milo, dates and skim milk
Snacks: Nescafe coffee sachets (about 4 w 2 teaspoons of sugar and some skim milk), 2 muesli bars, a Vita Wheat and 3 cruskits, 4 chocolate biscuits, a small tub of yogurt, strawberries with sugar, a banana
Lunch: lebanese bread w turkey, mayo and cheese
Dinner: ?

Now tell me, how IS it even possible for me to be able to eat this much? I'm lucky i'm not actually that overweight. Well i admit....i AM chubby (underneath all these clothes i cover up in!) but people actually THINK i'm skinny. Do you believe that? It's absolute bullshit! I'm such a fat pig. I just eat....eat and eat more and i don't know why i do it. I'm not an emotional eater. I have such an addiction to food. It's absolutely disgusting and i've been on and off dieting for years. I think that's what triggered my compulsive over eating....i guess restricting is what triggers it!

Am i the only one who can eat all this? I know that this NEEDS to stop because it's so incredibly bad for my health and i can't imagine the damage i'm doing to my health. I don't want to grow up and become overweight. I know i'm not fat but i know i DO have fat to lose. Like i said, i AM chubby. I've never been real thin.

I've failed so many times and i just keep failing, over and over again. The problem with me is that i never learn from the mistakes i make. I just keep on doing them and feeling sorry for myself. I say to myself " i feel disgusting....tomorrow i'm going to eat healthy" and the next day i start off positively but i end up binging. I've been binging terribly for the last 3 months and have gained a shit ton of weight! I gained all the weight i lost that took me 5 months to lose. I was almost to my dream body. People thought i was getting too skinny! Though i don't think i was...

I just feel like i don't have any control....i know i can't give up though. I need to do this.

[nathrakh]

Your definitly not alone. I am able to eat huge amounts of food aswell. But i look fit. Got some tricks up my sleeve.

Its a miracle how much the stomach can stretch during a binge. I once ate 2 whole pies and in additon to that lots of chocolate and cinnamon rolls. Or i just binge on like 2 liters of milk with oats or cereal, its pathetic. But unfortunatly life has to be like this for us. Cant give you much advice here as im stuck binging, purging, excercising, drugging myself. But your not alone atleast.

[bagelbeautyxO]

When I worked at a bagel shop, I experienced some pretty bad instances of binge eating. I would bring home tons of leftovers and eat bagel after bagel...a few muffins, pastries...CARBS!

My advice to you would be to eat some more protein, fiber and healthy fats...These things will help you to feel full.

I've also heard that elevated blood sugar will just make you feel hungrier, so try to limit simple carbohydrates.

[Imperfectxx]

Your definitly not alone. I am able to eat huge amounts of food aswell. But i look fit. Got some tricks up my sleeve.

Its a miracle how much the stomach can stretch during a binge. I once ate 2 whole pies and in additon to that lots of chocolate and cinnamon rolls. Or i just binge on like 2 liters of milk with oats or cereal, its pathetic. But unfortunatly life has to be like this for us. Cant give you much advice here as im stuck binging, purging, excercising, drugging myself. But your not alone atleast.

Yeah, i think today was one of my WORST binge days. What do you mean by 'got some tricks up my sleeve'? I know that this site doesn't allow 'tips' and 'tricks' but by that are you referring to purging? I'm guessing you are...

[Imperfectxx]

The thing is, i don't eat when i'm hungry. I eat for no reason. I just....do it. I'm addicted

[nathrakh]

Yeah, i think today was one of my WORST binge days. What do you mean by 'got some tricks up my sleeve'? I know that this site doesn't allow 'tips' and 'tricks' but by that are you referring to purging? I'm guessing you are...

Purging, Excercising. I just do whatever it takes to get the calories out. I count the binges. And compensate. One way or another. i never ever let one down without making sure the calories are gone. But no tips ;-).

[elzie]

Your binge is a small snack compared to my 20-60,000cal binges. So you're deffo not alone.

[kittycat]

I had binges like elzie mentioned years ago..All i did was stuff my face and puke..glad i stopped..

[lovely_bones]

Yeah it is possible to eat that much food, in fact if you've seen posts of others with bulimia or even turn to the media/tv you'll see just the amount of food people can eat. Its a matter of training your body to hold more food. Over time if you keep stretching the boundries of your stomach you can fit in a shitload amount of food. I don't mean physically gaining weight which results in stretching your stomach. someone can eat a lot more from simply training themself through eating a lot of vegetables. For instance, if a normal person with a normal appetite for some reason decided they wanted to eat a shit load of vegetables everday .. they may not be able to at first or may feel very sick afterwards...but constant day in and day out eating large sum of vegetables (even though their not gaining weight) they are expanding the capsity of their stomach and training it to fill in more food. This is the case for competitive eaters, people who are overweight and muscle builders.

Also a person that was once overweight and lost weight can easily fit as much food into their body as if they were still overweight when they are in fact not anymore becuase the stomach never decreases in size forever, just shrinks.

When I went from overweight to underweight I could still fit a heaping of food in my stomach, it was relatively easy.

btw what you ssaid as a binge was pretty healthy considering other binges. I dont know if your secretly ana and are warped and think your overweight but either way it seems to me like you restrict a lot more htne your saying. Restricting does not work so try to eat normally. If you want any specific advice you can clarify & I'll give you a response to that

[alm0ndmilk]

While reading this, I thought it was something I wrote. Like, that's exactly the same way I am.

And it's scary. Because even during the times that I do feel confident in my abilities, and I think "wow this is easy, I'm losing weight, I'm never binging again", it never lasts. I always eventually go back to my ways. My weight has gone from 132 when I was 12 or so, to 118, to 110, to 116, to 111, to 120, to 102, back up to 119 where I am now, within about 4 years. And I'm only 5'2, so the smallest shift in weight is so noticeable. I bet I'm a size 3/5 right now, and at 102 pounds I was a 0. Sometimes I get scared that this cycle will never stop.