How are you feeling right now?

[Lady Persephone]

Trying hard to stay happy and at peace with myself . . . but those negative thoughts keep cropping up and I can't help but be consumed by my feelings . . . I wish I knew what he was thinking right his very moment, how he really feels . . . I wonder what he's up to now . . . *sigh*

[weightlessrunner]

Trying hard to stay happy and at peace with myself . . . but those negative thoughts keep cropping up and I can't help but be consumed by my feelings . . . I wish I knew what he was thinking right his very moment, how he really feels . . . I wonder what he's up to now . . . *sigh*

Heeeeeeeeyah and yah and yah and yah!!!!! Those thoughts are gone now aren't they? There's plenty more of that ninja that can fight off those thoughts. You know where to find me!

[bittergreen]

Sad, suffocated, empty... with that "lump in your throat" feeling. I'm on the verge of tears on a bench at the mall. In public (obviously). I want to get out of here.

Fun times.

[Raiesonance]

My mom pities me. And she keeps bringing up religion, making my doubts resurface. Over and over again. No matter how hard I try to stop my skepticism, because in my environment, it WILL cause deep shit. But she just won't stop. I'm afraid of my own thoughts, I'm sending myself to hell. I can't control my brain.

[undecided]

confused as fuck. don't know why things are happening in my life, guilty, scared, lost, paranoid, ashamed of posting my feelings

[mischa]

Ecstatic! Relieved! Proud! My period came back! Holy shit I did not expect that! After 8 months! It makes sense, as at this BMI I still had it back in November. Oh my god I'm healthy-- that's so good. And I exercised so nice last night. (: Watched some good tv at the gym. Only I get a lot of stares probably due to the fact that I look 14. What's this little child doing here? Are you lost?

OH I AM WON!

[mischa]

Ecstatic! Relieved! Proud! My period came back! Holy shit I did not expect that! After 8 months! It makes sense, as at this BMI I still had it back in November. Oh my god I'm healthy-- that's so good. And I exercised so nice last night. (: Watched some good tv at the gym. Only I get a lot of stares probably due to the fact that I look 14. What's this little child doing here? Are you lost?

OH I AM WON!

[Lady Persephone]

Heeeeeeeeyah and yah and yah and yah!!!!! Those thoughts are gone now aren't they? There's plenty more of that ninja that can fight off those thoughts. You know where to find me!

Aww girl (((((((((((((WR))))))))))))))) Yeah, I feel much better today . . . I get so overly emotional when it comes to "him" . . . but I'm really happy that I feel so much passion about him, like STILL feel so much passion, if not MORE! Even after all these months . . . sometimes I scare myself that I can feel so insanely crazy about him. I never thought I'd fall so hard like this, and no matter what happens, I totally don't feel any regret whatsoever that I feel like this. I may be crawling out of my skin some days, but others I'm so madly happy I feel glad to be alive and I could do anything!

Thanks for being here for me, though . . . my emotions are like such a rollercoaster, and I have to do something active to get my mind off things.

[AliceIsMadeOfGlass]

Sad. Pathetic, hopeless?
Well. aren't I just a lovely ray of sunshine =]
My bf just left for a few months to grab some of his stuff that's at his house 5 states away. I miss him dearly, even though we fought like crazy. It hurts very bad.

[deathbychocolate]

Emotional, very very hurt, still angry. Sick. Really really hurt and tired and sad but embarassed/ashamed/angry at myself at the same time for letting it go on so long.

Trying to be strong. I don't want to settle for being 85% happy when there's a chance I could find it for real. Just because I have my problems doesn't mean I have to put up with anyone who will put up with me.

Conflicted. Need to eat. Haven't had a hot meal since last Friday. Want to keep up the momentum I've gained this past few days but I have nowhere to run away to tonight so I am alone with the demons again and all I want to do is not eat but I know I've lost too much and this is not a path I want to continue on, however easy it might seem. I also haven't drank since the drama and I'm so tempted to get high as a kite on pills and booze but that only ever leads to trouble.

Hate this shit. Just want to be normal.