Reasons to Recover.

[citrous]

Let's start a huge list. Like a HUGE FREAKING LIST, of all the reasons to recover from our eating disorders.

See, I started this ... "eating disorder book". It's a marble composition book, and I plastered it with random pictures from magazines... I found a photo shoot with all these models and bunnies, so I have like 11 different bunnies on the front and back cover! haha. And then inside, I have like poems about either continuing anorexia or going with recovery. It's kind of a two faced book. Anyways, it's just where I vent about my daily life with anorexia and make collages and draw skeletons... okay, so. On the inside of the back cover, I wrote "Reasons to Recover". And I stared at it, thinking of reasons. Of course, there are some, there are millions.. but I was wondering if we all, on this forum, could make a massive list!! And then I can pick the ones I like the best and write them in my "ED Book" and I can look at it whenever I feel like starving myself. <3333 and of course it's just healthy for everyone to think of all the reasons to recover!!! ^_^

Oka, let's go!!!

[failure2win]

to eat what i want, when i want, because i want.

to look at myself in the mirror and think i look good.

to think that my life has worth again.



those are just my personal favorites,,,

[elementofblank]

To be able to unburden my mind and focus on something-anything- other than food.

To have kids eventually and be a healthy inspiration for them.

To enjoy my time with friends and family and not be so distracted.

To only throw up when I get the stomach flu.

[Gollum]

To never miss good times because I'm too insecure to go out.
To stop burdening my family.
To be able to eat spontaneously and not need to plan everything in advance.
To have more energy and concentration.
To enjoy food!

[EnoughIsEnough]

To live!

To avoid an early grave.

So that I can enjoy myself in public without feeling as though everyone's looking at me.

To be a better girlfriend/friend/daughter/sister.

To save myself a huge amount of money.

[thinkingaloud]

Mainly, TO LIVE!
I dont want to die, I want to have a life.
I want to get my personality back, not be defined by my ED
I want to have energy to be able to do the things i used to and enjoy them.
I want to stop hurting my family and friends, I dont want people crying over me.
I dont want to lose friends, i dont want my friends to not invite me to dinner because they feel uncomfortable with it. Or me to not want to go because i feel uncomfortable.
I want people to be proud of me, not think im a freak
I dont want to feel worthless, useless, a failure
I dont want my life to revolve around the toilet.
I dont want my mood that day to be determined by what the scale says..or even have to look at the scale.
I dont want to go into shops and feel embarrassed because im buying tonnes of food, and paranoid that ppl know.
I want to eat a fucking chocolate bar and enjoy it!!

[glassfields]

to be able to eat whatever i want, regardless of calories/fat.
to not have to measure all of my food out, just pour it straight out of the container, or even out of the container.
to be able to actually go out to a restaurant with the boy i'm in love with and be able to eat a meal with him without being concerned about calories.
to not panic when i don't know the calorie content.
to think i look good regardless of what i ate that day.

the list goes on

[paige]

To be able to wear clothes that I like, not baggy clothes to cover up my body.
To be able to focus on things that matter in life, like school! :P
To be able to set foot in any restaurant. The only restaurants I go to are sushi restaurants and a vegan one. I really miss this one French restaurant that was (and still is) my favourite.
To be able to eat and enjoy the flavours, and not worry about my waist and thighs.
To be able to eat because I'm hungry, not eat because I'm going to faint otherwise.
To be able to purchase a bra in a store. 30B is fucking hard to find. I have to buy bras online.
To be able to buy panties that aren't meant for children.
To feel normal!


I just wish the superficial and overwhelming need to feel pretty would bow down to this list.

[Mkay]

To be able to look at holidays and get-togethers as a time to socialize with friends and family.
To face the mirror, with a smile.
To be able to act my own age... (Ex. chocolate chip cookies + peanutbutter & jelly + junk food = staples for a teen's life.) ...and not worry about it!

[perfect_disguise]

reasons to recover:

because...
- i don't want food to control my life
- i want to able to appreciate being thin instead of constantly worrying about trying to get thinner
- to eat and not feel self conscious
- to be able to eat in groups and not feel like i am being judged or have to compare my food to other people's
- i want my mind to be free so i can explore other things i am interested in
- to be able to be at a healthy weight and still feel like i deserve love