If there's anyone out there thinking bulimia may be an option...

[Iwillbe]

So true. Esp about the money part. I'm broke, depressed, I feel guilty and paranoid. ): But it isn't enough to stop me. I wish someone could just plan my meals for me every day and watch me 24/7 just so I wouldn't bp. ):

[thinmusyck]

it is definitely not an option and well there are still so many other consequences we deal with each day. ((
sad knowing people look for these illnesses.

[dancer05]

Sometimes I feel like I gave myself this illness (and I'm pretty sure that I did). I saw it as my escape to my anorexic "tendancies" (not that I was trying to be a "wanna" or anything, I just hated eating and I still do, I don't even know why. I don't deserve food because.. well for too many resons to name). Anyways, when I binged for the first time I couldn't let myself keep all of it inside so I threw it all up (well, as much as I could) and from then on, purging became an excuse to eat, like "oh no its okay, I'll just throw it up later. No biggie."... Well, lets just say that I'd never been more wrong in my entire life...........

[Dol]

Sometimes I feel like I gave myself this illness (and I'm pretty sure that I did).

I totally understand how you feel...the whole thing was kind of a diet that got out of control. For the first time I looked at fat grams and calorie content and was terrified at a 150cal can of soup! My own lack of education I think was a big factor...I mean, I'm an intelligent person! I know the effects of what I'm doing but my perception of calories is so warped I can't handle it!
I've lost over a stone in weight between getting anoretic tendencies, self-recovering for a few months then relapsing a billion times worse.
When I first purged it was a total one off, then I tried again and again and I got smarter and better and now it's a total dependancy. I feel terrible for my family. My mother saw my ana-tendencies and now force me to eat but she doesn't get that if I eat, I will eat EVERYTHING and then purge it asap.
Please, please if you're not so far down that there's a way out for you, take it. I hate lying and hating myself and I can't enjoy anything any more. I'm barely 16 but there's a big chance this is going to stay with my for the rest of my life.

[dancer05]

Please, please if you're not so far down that there's a way out for you, take it. I hate lying and hating myself and I can't enjoy anything any more. I'm barely 16 but there's a big chance this is going to stay with my for the rest of my life.

Yeah, I hope theres a way out.. I don't feel like there is. Trying to cling back to my anorexic tendancies will probably end up as a fail and I'll probably fall back into an even worse b/p cycle.. Nobody (except for whyeat friends) know about my problems. And I'm right there with you, 16 and stuck.

[KoH.]

Agree with everything listed. Makes me wonder that if i didn't do this to myself, could i have gone further? Would i have maintained good friendships and relationships? I just feel like a walking dead girl that's so alone and carries so much heart ache that no one will ever know or understand.

[lene91]

ah i can relate so well =(

[mangaluver45]

This web-site is a wonderful place I think for people who are looking for support and need help.
This thread gave me so much hope that maybe there's another way for me... <3 <3 <3

[Razan]

I agree with what all of you are saying but that still doesnt change the fact that im still fat. Im not bulimic YET. Ive only thrown up a couple of timea and i dont do the "binge purge" thing i just eat a bit then feel bad so i go and throw it up. Honestly, since i already thought about doing it i dont think anything can stop me. Reality hit me today when my mom told me that i was fat. And just so you know i was always skinny as a child and always skinnier then my cousins and they were all fat, like really fat. As i grew up i gained a bit of weight. So then they all starting doing diets,gyms and all that and now theyre practically skinnier than me. I weigh 55kg but the problem is that im short im about 156cm so my weight might not be that much but compared to my height it makes me look fatter! I tried being ana but i couldnt resist because im such a fatass. I think bulimia is my only option.

[peanuts]

Totally agree with what has been said here.

I think that people have a totally misconception that bulimics are all skinny.
I think the media need to pick up on this because the truth is. IT DOESNT ACTUALLY WORK!!
I purge everyday mostly 3/4 times a day and Im a size 12, the same size I was when I started.

The only time I lost weight was a couple of years ago when I was anorexic with it. But making yourself ill does not cause weight loss.
I loose more weight when Im on a healthy eating plan with excise than when I'm binging and purging.

So if you think you can eat what you want and just get rid of it thats just not the case. You end up constantly hungry which leads to more binges and more purging and your body will go into 'survival mode' and hug onto as many calories as it can.