pureza

Vowed to not speak about anything that bothers me, to be quiet. So far i'm successful. Anyways, everything goes downhill, so unbelievably downhill. i ganied weight, my mood is all over the place, i can't think straight, my A-levels are approaching rapidly and i'm not able to study since i'm so 'gone'. On top of everything i am abourt to even worsen the relationship to my mum, simply because i can't talk and am constantly in a rotten mood.
My life pretty much sucks atm. Oh, and i'm nearly broke. Why? Partly because i bought myself so much food i didn't need.
It's sunday evening. Tomorrow's monday.
Gonna be at a friend's at dinner time and next friday is my next appointment with my therapist. i'm not gonna exceed my daily limit anymore. It's gotten so ridiculous, i'm not allowed to wear one jeans, at least two shirts, three dresses, two skirts and two pair of shoes. Additionally i can't do certain things i normally do, just because i gained about 3 stupid kilos from my "normal" weight. Mind you i'm 179cm (5"10.5) - nobody except me is actually able to see those 3 kilos.
From tomorrow on. It's enough right now.