billy

Goal weights:

130
125- first goal weight at '07 relapse (not ultimate)
121
120- low college weight
119
118
116- high end of healthy weight range
115
114- weight the nurse said out loud one day, causing me to freak
110
109
108- low end of healthy weight range
105- it just took me a long time to get here last time
104- underweight
102- low weight at current height
100- almost double digits!
99
98- Ana weight
97
95- weight of skinny friend
92
90- original ultimate goal weight at '07 relapse
89
88- "never good enough"
84- emaciated
82
79
75
70- next goal weight (RD said I'd have to cut off a limb to get here with my bone structure, second UGW after '07 relapse)
68- 1 lbs under a friend from ip
65- low weight of skinny girl on PT
59- original goal weight at beginning of ana in 2000
58
57
56- single digit bmi
55
54- same bmi as what Naomi from Rhodes Farm wants
50- can double my weight and only be 100
49- can double my weight and be under 100
48
47
46
45
44
43
42- can double my weight and still be emaciated
41
40- a nice number divisible of 5 (I like those)

Pounds to loose: 96

Yep, I'm insane, it is true, there is a .00000001% chance I'd make it to 40 alive, but I don't really care...plus, I know my parents will go to court to get medical guardianship of me if I drop below 80...but in my perfect, unrealistic, disordered world, this is what I want...