by, 08-16-2012 at 10:52 PM (110 Views)
If I told you I'd try my hardest to make the time we have together meaningful.. would you try to do the same? -I would tell my love.
I saw him today and I felt sick to my stomach. I wouldn't to puke up all I ate. I wanted to rip out my stomach, scratch the flesh off my muscle and bone. We barely spoke for he had to leave for work. Work.. he works hard and I admire that. I am, in the back of my mind, still waiting for him and passing the time sleeping with other men. It doesn't even bother him which I am glad he isn't bothered.
Sex is pleasure, nothing more or less. Love is the same towards everyone else. Love shouldn't have favorites. Love is for all. At least it should be..
Talk to me my love.. why are you so quiet? Reach out and I'll be there for you. I'll be a friend but if you want to leave, tell me.
People come and go for many reasons. They're your friend one moment then an enemy the next and maybe a lover. Some people find their "special someone" and some are "forever alone". I have to let the ones who want to leave.. go. I must let them go.. let it all go. We starve for that attention. We starve for many reasons. I starve from the inside. I shrink for the smaller I become.. my emotions go with the lost weight. I am shedding my emotional and dysfunction tendencies.
I want to treat everyone the same. Gentle but blunt in a way that it hits home without much hard feelings. Treat them the way i want to be treated. Why treat everyone differently if we are trying to attain the same thing? The only difference is that we have various methods. To escape suffering and attain happiness.. I've learned so much.. but never enough.