by, 08-13-2012 at 05:11 PM (111 Views)
Everyone has them just like I do. My friend's ex has randomly messaged me to ask how I've been. I know he wouldn't have done that unless he wanted something. That's with everyone including myself. I may be a puppet but I am no whore. I may be easily manipulated but I know when to say no. I still feel that I am just a body towards people for pleasure. The sad part is that I kind of like him (the friend's ex) when I met him but I would of never went after him while they were together. I am half tempted to ask what he wants and go on. I am lonely but I have a void he could never fill. Not even food could fill the void. I'm still having sex with my friend and I told my ex, Lee, about that and he was fine. I'm okay that he isn't mad. I just wanted him to know if we got back together. I know I want Lee and would do anything to get back with him if he wanted to get back with me. I just hope he didn't want me just for sex. If he did I'd want him to tell me and I'd be fine. I don't want to be lied too. I don't need to be used and lied too anymore..