by, 08-05-2012 at 04:04 PM (105 Views)
To hope only causes anxiety and disappointment. We wait for something that will never come. Our minds are clouded and do not see the situation for what it is. I've learned that fully this year. I've learned to let it go, to let people go. I've said what I had to say and now I must go on with my life day by day and not look back or look forward. To focus in the now will prepare me for the future; whatever it may bring me. I cannot wait for something I think will come. I cannot expect something that will never happen no matter how predictable it may appear. That is the illusion of hope. It is filled with only maybes and nevers.
I grow impatient with hopes and wishful-thoughts. That is the cause of my unhappiness and the cure is to escape those causes. Those causes could be people, situations, anything. So I sit here and let it flow out from my thoughts and become anew. Experiencing pain has opened my eyes. People never stay and I must be okay with that no matter how much work I put into them. I cannot get close to people for it will only cause pain. I will still help them but only if they ask. I cannot push the issue for it will only be annoying. I am alive but not living. I must let it all go.