by, 07-15-2012 at 11:15 PM (89 Views)
I feel so freaking angry with everyone. I've started abusing drugs and alcohol again and I'm soooo mad at my parents for not noticing my substance abuse in addition to my eating disorder. I feel soo incredibly alone because even the people who are supposed to be my friends don't actually like me. My only true friend has substance abuse problems too and therefore I can't go to him for help. I'm so sick of everything. I feel so tiresome and exhausted from not eating and my field hockey coach is threatening to cut me from the team if I don't improve my physical health. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to disappear so freaking bad.