sarah_xo

Today I told myself I would restrict as much as I could. However, that didn't work out. My mom made rice, and I had to eat it. I was disgusted with myself, it's like every bite you take you feel yourself getting fatter. I decided to purge it, and it was literally the easiest thing ever to purge(it sounds disgusting, I know.) I feel good, but horrible at the same time.

Tomorrow will be Fourth of July, and I'm going to a party.. There will be tons of food. I'll more than likely be staying the night, so I'm scared. I'm obviously going to have to eat something, but there will be no way I can purge it without it being obvious. I have no idea what I am going to do.