Cecilie

Long time since my last visit here. Where to start..?

I never went to my doctor's appointment. I couldn't, it was too much. But now my husband knows about my problems and he supports me, he would rather help me not eat than watch me eat and go through it all up again (I hate bulimia). And he encourage me to start exercising so I don't have to starve myself to death (who is the fool, me or him).

Everyday starts with a desire to not eat. Every time I fail, I want to kill myself. I have gained weight and I really hate my body right now, but it has been stable for the last month or so. Now I just need to get rid of it all again, to reach my goals and gain control.

I don't think there is a way out of this. I need this so bad.

what have I missed? Any drama on WE lately?