Cecilie
Who is this Ana anyways?
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, 08-31-2011 at 08:13 AM (305 Views)
Everybody is talking about an Ana, who has too much control over their lives. Others say food has control over them. I don’t get it.
I tend to keep people away from me and like to distance the ones who have to be close to me. I can’t even imagine making an illness a person. That would just make me panic. And I’m not anorexic so why even call it Ana? Yes, my ED helps me cope, but it’s not my friend, it’s my tool.
And I can’t see how food can be in control over anybody. The food is just a thing we humans can eat, process and get nutrients from and all this only to survive. It’s not the food that is the enemy. The food doesn’t care if you eat it or not. It does not exist to _make_ you eat it. The real enemy is your own body and its instinct to survive. It needs the food to survive and that is why you have cravings.
My body is a slave and I am its mistress. I am the only one who can control my own body. No bitch named Ana or Mia or whoever is in control over me or my body. If my body rebels it’s my responsibility to get the control back. It’s only me and my body and I rule with an iron fist. Whenever I’m weak, my body tends to rebel and I need to stay strong to keep everything under control.
I guess I’m sick, but it’s just a part of me. I need to be perfect regardless of an ED. My illness is my tool to survive and it’s killing me little by little every day, but at least I am in control.
If I can't be perfect nor be in control, I don’t want to be at all!
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