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yeah ik the feeling , sometimes my mom serve me food even when i say to her that im not hungry and then tell me not to eat in my bedroom .that's when i think im screw i have to eat and them purge later -_-

OMG - that is exactly how I feel. What is the point if you're empty and lonely and never come first in anyone's life? I get used and then pushed to the side til someone else needs me. And an eating disorder telling me I'm too fat day in and day out. What the F*** is the point?

If people are trying to take you down, it's because you're already above them. She probably asked because she's going through her own eating problems. ED's are rarely visible to the outside eye. They're totally mental. If she's comparing her own habits with yours it's because she WANTS to take attention away from herself and 'sound normal'. She might have even repeated the same, heartless line she heard when she reached out to someone. Try to be understanding to your friend, and take courage from everyone here. Tell her that her reaction was uncalled for, and you didn't ask for her advice but that you would be willing to have an open non-judgemental talk if she wants. If she's closeminded or immature, she'll retaliate and that's okay. You're still you. Move on.

Originally Posted by BakedBunny49

yeah i had the same thing happen to me. i told my ex about my problem and in response called me f**** up and pathetic. that i wanted to be a worthless skinny b***. it really messed me up for the longest time and actually thought i was f*** up. funny how he go about how that girl was so pretty that girl was so hot. notice how they where skinny? even more how he said it in front of me. he's worthless and when i finally realized how horrible he was, i dumped him. then he told everyone about my habits. you can never trust anyone completely. >.>

I know, she doesn't know all my other friends, so it's not like it would be easier for her to tell everyone that knows me and stuff, but still. She makes me feel even more pathetic, and I feel like I could shrivel up and die and she would still consider me attention seeking. I am not going around telling everyone everything, I've told very few people that actually talk to me about this, specifically two, and the reactions were not what I wanted, but I guess you have to expect that though. It's kind of sad, the fact that she told me to just fucking eat, made me want to not eat even more, she doesn't realize trying to force me to eat is going to make me not want to eat at all, and it's just so frustrating that she doesn't understand it at all, I sound horrible right now, but I'm so mad at myself for telling her :( I'm also so sorry to hear about what happened with your ex, he sounds like a real tool! xx

yeah i had the same thing happen to me. i told my ex about my problem and in response called me f**** up and pathetic. that i wanted to be a worthless skinny b***. it really messed me up for the longest time and actually thought i was f*** up. funny how he go about how that girl was so pretty that girl was so hot. notice how they where skinny? even more how he said it in front of me. he's worthless and when i finally realized how horrible he was, i dumped him. then he told everyone about my habits. you can never trust anyone completely. >.>

Originally Posted by cece123

Happy Birthdayyyyyyy, stay strong!! I hope you find at least some enjoyment today XX

-cece

Just saw this, thank you! I relaxed a little bit, although it still wasn't that much fun... But thank you soo soo much xx

Originally Posted by SainteMarthe

Yeah!!! I felt so...........so.....petulant! Ungrateful and rude and unkind cuz my fam came in the afternoon and gave me presents and I was like 'thanks.' And all the food was my favourite and I just had to go 'thanks' and not eat it. Never been so glad for my mum. She told them afterwards -phew-

It must be so hard when people don't know. Hopefully they won't push it or ask questions because it's your birthday. x

Just saw this! And yeah, it turned out being okay, I just ate and got it over with. It lead into wanting to eat a lot though, which sucked, but I had a cake that was made up of cupcakes basically, and I only had 2 cupcakes in all, so It wasn't as bad, but I've been starving myself to make up for it, which makes me feel equally as bad because I know I'm hurting my family. But thank you for your comment xx

Happy Birthdayyyyyyy, stay strong!! I hope you find at least some enjoyment today XX

-cece

Yeah!!! I felt so...........so.....petulant! Ungrateful and rude and unkind cuz my fam came in the afternoon and gave me presents and I was like 'thanks.' And all the food was my favourite and I just had to go 'thanks' and not eat it. Never been so glad for my mum. She told them afterwards -phew-

It must be so hard when people don't know. Hopefully they won't push it or ask questions because it's your birthday. x

Originally Posted by SainteMarthe

My birthday was Easter Sunday so I was like we'll do my birthday before church in the morning and then it's Easter. My extended family just didn't understand why I didn't want to celebrate! It was so so so horrible. SO much food. So much attention on me. Blah. It was nasty.

Happy birthday though. I hope you can get some enjoyment out of the day. Good luck!

Thank you. It really sucks too, because I feel like I haven't ate anything really and I'll gain 23420949 pounds today. They're apparently getting this cute cake and everything, and I feel bad because I know I should be grateful, and I am, it's just I don't want to eat, especially in front of everyone. But thank you!

My birthday was Easter Sunday so I was like we'll do my birthday before church in the morning and then it's Easter. My extended family just didn't understand why I didn't want to celebrate! It was so so so horrible. SO much food. So much attention on me. Blah. It was nasty.

Happy birthday though. I hope you can get some enjoyment out of the day. Good luck!

Yeah I know, I dream of death. there is this song called suicidal dreams by silverchair. that song hit me hard. I use to care what my mother would feel if I offed myself. I thought about what others would feel too but I've started not to care. I don't want you to end up like I have. Living is so hard and dying is easy. We die a bit more everyday. My best advice is to talk to someone close about it that would understand. Don't ever take pills though. Pills just cover the pain. But thats my opinion. I wish you the best.

Originally Posted by ItsAllGood

I ask the same question everyday. Every mistake I've made hits harder every time no matter how big or insignificant it is. You just have to look for the light and never lose sight of it.

I know, I just wish it was easier to do that. I can't let my mom down though, and I guess thats why I'm alive. It's so hard. Living. I just want to crawl up and die sometimes. It's horrible, you know? Sometimes I picture my death, and it doesn't scare me or anything.

I ask the same question everyday. Every mistake I've made hits harder every time no matter how big or insignificant it is. You just have to look for the light and never lose sight of it.

Originally Posted by Poetlocked

If you need a texting buddy I'm in. I'm struggling with my on eating disorder.

Alright! I'm from the US, so yeah, if you're from another country I have no idea what the rates would be. If you're still interested, just pm about it xx

Originally Posted by anxiety chick :)

What exactly is it that you are going through? Feel free to chat me up any time!

I've been starving and purging most of what I eat, I can't really talk to anyone else about it expect on this website. But yeah, feel free to drop me a message!

Originally Posted by starving4attention

You can talk to me anytime. I'm on two or three times a day.

Okay, yeah, feel free to message me anytime! I'm on about 2-4 times a day. xx

Originally Posted by Pale_Rose

I'll be your friend(:

Haha, hi! :)

If you need a texting buddy I'm in. I'm struggling with my on eating disorder.

What exactly is it that you are going through? Feel free to chat me up any time!