galaxy

pros:

filling out my clothes better
more energy
somewhat of an interest in boys
not as terrified of people
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Just so everyone knows, I made it a week without b/p for the first time this year. Tried to purge one wonton earlier today but couldn't...then came home ...

so yeah, somehow i've cut down on b/ping. i just make an effort to eat 1200 calories or more. it was difficult at first, but once the weight started dropping ...

OK SO...tonight i went out for a friends birthday, standard deal, didn’t eat all because i didn’t want to feel inadequate (also money!), puked a few times ...

i feel guilty when i'm full, like i'm "so heavy"

tonight i restricted. way lower than usual, no idea why. i just worked late ...

lately i'm in a weird state with ED. in fact i'm convinced i'm "in remission", quasi-recovered, whatever. thing is, i still binge and purge. ...

*le me playing on facebook*

me: oh look at her, haha she's gained weight that's funny
me: sucks to be her she must hate her life ...

i was SO hungry because i'd restricted to only vodka, diet coke, and a couple sour candies that day. it was 3am but i immediately rushed to make food...thankfully ...

it was awhile ago. he wouldn't stop messing around with her behind my back, so i cut him off. while we dated i kept getting thinner and making endeavours ...

everyone i speak to: i want to be thin
every headline i read: you want to be thin
every photo i see: being thin is better
every ...