I just binged =(

[Night-butterfly]

I finally manage to drop 3 kg, but today i binged ! =/. (It's been weeks since the last time)
I hate myself so much for doing this. I don't understand my weakness at all it makes me sick even thinking about what i eat.

I was home alone and when I got ready to throw up, my mother came home. (I couldn't do it because it gets very noisy when I throw) Therefore I'm left at my room feeling even more horrible for putting myself in this situation...
I have taken 2 laxatives... But what really doesn't help the fact that I once again broke my control over myself...

I will start again on my diet tomorrow...

''Food doesn't control me, I control myself!''

[Heba86]

I hear ya. I am currently in that state of mind myself. I wish there was a better/easier way. I have been trying to keep my mind off of food, even though this house is full of some of the most disgustingly fattening things ever. It helps to not be at home definitely.

Hope you are feeling better.

[Night-butterfly]

Thanks

I guess I will feel ''normal'' again after 2 days... For the rest of today and tomorrow i will be bloated =/..

I think i will take a long walk tomorrow so I won't be able to eat...
It is dangerous to be home alone.