The New, Old, Me. God im gunna go insane.

[SkyRoberts]

When i was in 8th - 10th i was deppresed. I hated my life even hough i can say i am probably pretty blessed.
i used to cut my legs alot soi could hide with my clothes. but my clothes would rub on it and it would be twice cut all the time. i would want to do drugs. and want to just feel pain. i chose self suffering, because i feel like suffering... idk why.

it went away for years. but maybe its because my boyfriend put me through enough suffering for me not to have to. threatening to kill me, and controling my every movment. I had no friends.

I finaly am in a good place in my life and suddenly all i want to do is hurt. Im exsposed to pot and alcohol but thats not the problem. the prob is now i found cocain and its killing me not to try...
i want to cut myself
i want to B&P.
i just want to suffer.
& idk why...

=( ugg

[Jacklinger]

Are you masochistic? I've never really understood that condition much, but apparently masochists are addicted to pain and torment, even humiliation. It has a bit of negative stigma to it but it's not the end of the world.

[lory]

i know its hard but please, for yourself please dont try the hard drugs.
it will feck everything up..i swear to you youre better off without it.
i know im a 'boring stranger' who is just telling you what most people say but please..for yourself dont do it :(