this doesn't make much sense

[skylines]

I feel so out of balance lately, I'm either binging the whole cupboard or floating on air and water. I've been too scared the look at the scales, so I have no idea where I am at the moment- but that's probably a good thing. I'm feeling such a huge disconnect between myself and the girl in the mirror. I don't know her, she doesn't know me, and we stay perfect strangers.

but it's what I've been feeling lately that's turning everything upside down. I'm not happy, I'm not sad either. it feel like I'm waiting for something.it's like, I'm going through the motions, but every little thing seems to be linked. I'll be thinking of someone, thinking about what I would do if I saw them, and they'll be right there all of a sudden. I feel so out of it all the time, becuase I'm thinking of everything, but it's all connected in a way that I can SEE but not UNDERSTAND. everything is a catalyst.

...yeah, I sound crazy. but has this happened to anyone else? it's not bad; I actually kind of like the distance it gives me. but it's hard to concentrate on anything when you constantly feel like you're waiting for something. something big, something that is about to change everything.

[Roses]

hope it's a good thing what ur waiting for :) i know that feeling tho, i was waiting for something big to happen but i didn't know what, 2day something massive happened and now i feel nothing at all. it's really weird, i can't explain it :S
the way u explained it, do u mean ur having visions?? or u can see things going on but they don't mean anything?? i think it's the second but had to ask to first..

[skylines]

I'm glad I'm not the only one (:

and it's that I can see normal things and think that they're connected to something else...like a big chain reaction.

[Roses]

u see a connection somehow??

[brokendoll]

I don't think that that post makes no sense. It actually makes quite a bit of sense, especially to me who feel the same. I look at photos of myself (recent) and I feel like I know that girl from somewhere but she's not who I am. She's not who I want to be. She's ugly and fat and unsophisticated, uncharismatic and everything that everyone else hates. I just wanted to let you know that I understand your despair. Hang in there.