Time to grow up & find the balance

[stargAzerkitty]

Well the following has partly to do with my relationship
and then partly to do with my life.
So I think this is a good category to put this in.

Anyway, I found out why my boyfriend was so "seeming like he didnt care."
cause he is under a lot of pressure to save and move out in 9 months /he will be only 19 then./ He doesn't like to talk about his emotions/feelings but today we finally talked about it over the phone. In the end, it wasn't anything to do with me but more so the pressures he's dealing with now.

Anyway, As for my life part
I suppose it's time to alteast try to find the balance between things,
Ex : Social life and school/work
I either have a total social life & no school
Or all school & no social life,
Either way is not healthy, I can't live in the extremes and expect to survive.

Tomorrow I will be getting school sorted out,
I have a meeting to go to, I just need to brace myself and remain calm even if I feel like ripping someones hair out. /easier said than done, i know./

I need to start taking life in steps, instead of leaps.
You can't expect to grow a pumpkin patch in 1 day.

I just need to believe in myself more and realise that even though I have an eating disorder, it doesn't mean I'm any less important than another person.
Everyone has skeletons in their closet.

Anyway, I wrote this to just get the weight off my shoulders
Also writting this out helps me actually achieve things.

xx

[Vision Thing]

You don't seem to be asking anything, like you said, it's more of a feeling dump. But I read it anyway and it seems really sensible, and it's a good thing to get out all your thoughts.

[stargAzerkitty]

You don't seem to be asking anything, like you said, it's more of a feeling dump. But I read it anyway and it seems really sensible, and it's a good thing to get out all your thoughts.

Yeah thats basically what it was.
Thank you ^^

[Kashigolean]

feeling dumps are good, i think they help us get more comfortable with each other, and sympathize with each other. it also makes me feel -dont know about any one else- feel like at least there's someone out there going through as much pain as me, which sounds horrible, but it makes me feel less crazy :)

[stargAzerkitty]

feeling dumps are good, i think they help us get more comfortable with each other, and sympathize with each other. it also makes me feel -dont know about any one else- feel like at least there's someone out there going through as much pain as me, which sounds horrible, but it makes me feel less crazy :)

That doesnt sound horrible,
It's all relevant,
It's easier to know that there is someone out there going through the same,
It helps us deal.

Yeah, these past couple weeks have been nuts but I hope the meeting will go well tomorrow and that'll be one thing down.