Christmas day!!!!

[model]

k so wot did u all do for christmas day? i started off really well, and had like special cereal for breakfast, and then it sloped downhill - which i expected it would, now i need to ask you guys, wot do you do the next couple of days after christmas? cos there are goodies all over the fuking place!!!!

im not eating today because i have a party tonight and a cute santa outfit to wear, fuking hoping my stomach will be suked in by then! but after that?? should i stay really strong and melt my christmas day fat off? or allow the next 2 days to be like yeah its thew christmas holidays, and janu is a new year of skinny skinny skinny???????? help guys if u r all super strictfor boxing day then i shud prob b to, but if u have leverage then ok, xxxxxxxxxxxxx

[ella_bella]

personally i'm not strong enough lol. Boxing day I don't restrict as such but I start to cut back down until new year. But if you're strong enough to restrict/fast then do it.

[model]

i no i have had 1 day of eating loads, and im gonna give myself 1 day more!!!! ive been good today, i ate on christmas day, and fasted today, so tomorrow is my last day of indulgence!!!! im getting slashed tonight on vodka and diet red bull, cant wait!!

[Professorana]

I ate for a day and a half and now I'm done. I just can't take it anymore. I've completed all my eating obligations (teehee) for the holiday. We never do much on New Years anyway except drink and I can get out of that easily enough. Raw tomorrow and then soup and raw until our fast starts. I can't wait to see the pudge melt away. Nobody can believe I just had a baby and they want to know waht my weight loss secrets are--as if! But I'm almost there--just a little more discipline and little bit more dedication and I'll be back down to nothing by the time I have to go back to work at the end of January. Can't wait.

[sarah-charlotte]

hi just got back from Christmas at my dads - iv got to say my pre-Christmas diet was a complete success i looked fabulously thin and got so many positive comments about my weight, that is untill Christmas eve when i let go of my control and decided to enjoy myself, to hell with the diet. I ate so much but my dresses held out until this morning. Now im back in London and am gona take it easy today as it will just be me alone in the house with nothing remotely bad to eat. my new year diet will start on Tuesday after our last family meal, hopefully i can lose the half a stone iv gained over Christmas. shouldn't be too hard - all iv got to do is stop eating crap and restrict restrict restrict until i get my bones back. actually looking forward to it, Christmas was fun but now its over and i dont want to be carrying this flab around with me any longer. i want it gone. roll on Tuesday.

[Professorana]

isn't it funny how silly family is. They compliment how great we look--well some do anyway---others are just silent and green with envy. But, they disaprove of how we get this way. My mom was the only one this year who got worried. On Christmas day and the first thing out of her mouth was "you're too skinny--and you're too skinny too fast, I don't like it and i'm only going to say it once." And then she shut her mouth for the rest of the day. She's the kind of passive woman who would know that I was purging in the bathroom three feet from her couch (back when I was a teenager) and she would do nothing about it. She might say something like "were you making yourself throw up?" But that's it--not enough to stop me. So now I enjoy torturing her and saying things like " I haven't eaten in 10 days" just to see her get pissed off.

Why do I get such delight in torturing my mother?

[sarah-charlotte]

i use to do the exact same thing - last year (when i was stuck in Mia madness) i had a sick bucket in the living room as i was too fucking lazy to keep running up the stairs when i needed to purge. when mom or anyone else would come to the front door i would usually very carefully run thought the house to empty the bucket but the amount of times shes beaten me to the door and iv had to just hide the bucket under the table - for fuck sake she knows its there but she never once mentioned it. i dont understand that at all i mean even i was disgusted with what i was doing but for her to pretend it wasn't happening or that it was normal just made me hate her all the more. when i was pure ana (before mia ruined everything for me) i would deliberately bend over to get something for her knowing full well that my spine would stick up and scare the shit out of her. id lay on the sofa and move my skirt so that she could see my hip bone and sunken stomach - that's how i would torture her. looking back it was totally a cry for help but i never got any, i couldn't tel her how i was feeling so i tried to show her. with every target i passed i was waiting for a reaction. for her to be worried and want to help then id stop. i kept telling myself its because im not thin enough, if i get thinner shell have to notice me. my whole body was screaming at her "look what you've done to me" but id never say it because i know it was (and still is) my choice. finally now that iv moved passed the bullshit and drama ana is my life, my comfort and friend, when no one else was there for me ana was and now i dont know if i will ever stop.
what makes it all the more ironic is that on Christmas eve when i was skinny as could be she came and congratulated me on losing weight healthily. what the fuck?! stupid bitch. she has no idea how hard i worked to look like that.