fucking christmas BULLSHIT

[elizabeta_bones]

okay so i had these amazing great plans to lose weight, and as if i dont already have enough problems keeping the bulimia at bay, it just had to be christmas right now and everything just has to go wrong.
FUCK. im dating this super skinny guy who i like very much and who's already told me he doesnt like fat chicks. this is getting wayyyy out of control and i need to do something, ANYTHING to stop these urges. im tempted to go back to drugs. thats how bad i want this. but if anyone, ANYONE has anything at all to say that might help me, pleeaassee say something.

[ella_bella]

Don't go back to drugs. It only fucks with ur head more than the ana and things get twice as bad and you'll be twice as ill. Believe me I know. I've been on drugs and last time I ended up crashing a car into someones wall. not good!!

Wait for Christmas to be over. no one does brilliantly over christmas and it's harder to hide it over christmas because of family and friends being around. Then...

Focus! whatever your mind tells you to eat just tell it no. it's hard to start with but the more you do it the easier it gets. you've just got to soldier it out for a while and then it'll get easier. I'm here if you need me. How about joining our juice fast on 2nd Jan?

That gives you a week to prepare! xx

[Professorana]

Sweet heart, calm down and take a deep breath. Christmas is a really tough time to loose weight and if you keep beating yourself up over this (and torturing yourself by dating somebody so skinny teehee) you are never going to get back on track.

NO DRUGS< you don't need them. Ana/mia is way more than your little head and heart can handle---you don't need drugs to make it worse. I understand your urge though, yesterday was so bad, I wanted to pop a whole lot and chase with vodka but I realized that was just going to make things so much worse.

Use this week to get yourself under control, make a day to day plan re what you want to do and then take your new eating plan one day at a time. If you keep abusing yourself over your weight, you're never going to have the determination and the will power to control your urges. THen, as the new year begins, us it as a fresh start and things will go much better.

I hope what I've said to you makes somes sense--the some of it is, I know how bad you are hurting right now, as I've been caught in the same spiral before and it's really hard but you can get yourself out of this.


I'm here for you,

[elizabeta_bones]

aww thank you. that actually made me feel a lot better. i think i just needed some sleep too because when i woke up i was like "no way i'm going back to that dangerous and disgusting habit!" this ones bad enough as it is lol.
and yes, i will join your fast on the 2nd. is there another thread for it here?

[Professorana]

yeah, we need to start a new thread for the fast--and how long are we going? I want somebody to hold me accountable at the end of each day for what I've ingested and the weight I've lost!

[ella_bella]

good plan! I think you're right we should have a daily weigh-in & food diary. make sure we're keeping on track. lol

I'll post a thread! x