disgusted by me?

[stickyxlipgloss]

2 summers ago when me and my boyfriend first started dating we had sex alot.. then we had a baby and we only have sex MAYBE once a week.. and thats because i like beg him basically. I feel like shit about my body and dont take my clothes off because i dont want him looking and me and i need the nights off. Then when we do have sex 5 minutes in he asks to do it from behind which in my head means he cant look at me and be turned on. After he cums i always feel disgusted with myself and i feel so used and just cry. I dont no if its because he doesnt kiss me or care about my orgasm (which never has happened once) or just wants to get it over with fast. Does any one have any tips as to maybe help our sex life.. ? thanks .

[CountingRibs]

Talk to him about it hunni, he's the only one that can give you answers. You shouldnt ever fel disgraced about your body infront of your boyfriend though I mean I know we all are but he shouldnt make you feel like that ontop of your own worries *hugs*

xx

[RJam]

This must be horrible! I can't begin to know how you feel, so i won't try.
I would say the best option you have is to confront him about it.
I know that this idea may be scary and seem very hard to do, but could it really get much worse? Feeling used and disgusted at yourself is never a good thing and with all things considered would you rather keep feeling like you do or would you take a risk and perhaps make everything right?
Even if they aren't made right then at least you can start feeling better about yourself.

I really don't hope i am coming across mean, all i know is that the best way to find out information is to get it from the person themselves.

Being a guy myself (albeit more of a woman if I'm honest :P) i would say the bast way to do it would be work out the best way to approach him with this based on what he's like and talk. If he is reluctant then don't pressure him, be kind and considerate and he may open up. Guys don't like to look vulnerable but if there is something on their mind then 99% of the time they do actually want to share it, and it eats them up inside.

Apologies, for the long message, I get side-tracked a bit. I hope I've answered everything helpfully, if I haven't, or you want some further advice feel free to send me a message :)

Wishing you luck :)

[stickyxlipgloss]

Thank you both so much
I talked to him about it and he told me how i play hard to get and some other stuff but he wasnt really taking me seriously at all , but im just going to wait until im happy with my body before i have sex again.
Thanks again :)