Meehh :(

[NinjaTom]

So last week was possibly the worst I've had in my 17 years. My granddad was rushed to hospital with a heart attack, my best friend overdosed herself (survived, thank god), I relapsed further into both depression and my ED, and it's overloaded my head.

What do I deal with first? If I take my depression meds, I won't care about my granddad or friend, because they're too strong for me but any weaker and they don't work. If I go see my granddad, he'll comment on my underweight-ness and I'll feel horrible. If I spend time with my friend, I'll go further into depression because I'm already blaming myself for not being able to help her in the first place and it'll just get worse. It's a catch-22.

Managed to make my arm look even more like sushi that was prepared by a 4-year old with muscle problems. Woo hoo for me.
I feel like a complete failure. And college tomorrow, which I'm managing to fail miserably at.

The world can get fucked if I have to wake up tomorrow.

[stargAzerkitty]

-hugs-
I don't know what more to say,
my grandpa died when I was 15 and addicted to coke
the last time I ever saw him was when I was high
/shameful I know.

All I can tell you is that if he is sick go see him,
and maybe wear some more clothes to look bulky?

[Vision Thing]

Have a half dose of the depression meds if possible, and go and see your grandfather. He'll really appreciate your help, and if you're worried about what he'll think then wear baggy clothes. He probably won't even notice what you look like in the wake of what's happened.
Try to visit your friend too, if the doctors reccommend it.