dragonfly
01-20-2010, 07:00 AM
Sorry for ranting
I'm just so fed up with gp's and psychiatrists. All they ever seem to do is make stuff worse for me. It's like they know that I struggle to trust people enough to open up to them, and they know i freak out when I feel like i'm being controlled, but they still do stuff that they decide "is in my best interest" whether i like it or not.
Its like my gp was asking me last week about whether or not i found seeing a psychiatrist helpful. And I answered pretty much honestly because i thought i could trust her. But then i find out yesterday at my psych appointment that my gp had pretty much passed on everything i said, to the psychiatrist. Its like i think my psychiatrist is really useless, but i don't want her to know that's what i think. And i just really hate it when people talk about me behind my back.
And i got more lectures about what i should and shouldn't do from my psych yesterday. But its like i'm not stupid, i know what i should actually do to look after my body, i don't need people telling me what to do. Its my body i can do what the f**k i want to it.
Just so fed up of doctors deciding what treatments i need without caring what i think about treatment, or even bothering telling me sometimes. Like last time i was in hospital, they wanted to keep me in for observation, and i was like trying to sleep so had my eyes closed, and then some nurse was trying to put me on some drip, even though the last thing i'd been told was that i wasn't going to be given anything.
Its like they don't even care that i might actually want some sort of control over what they're doing to my body. And all i can think is that the only way i can stop them controlling my body is to just refuse to consent to all medical treatments they seem to think necessary.
sorry again, for ranting:(
I'm just so fed up with gp's and psychiatrists. All they ever seem to do is make stuff worse for me. It's like they know that I struggle to trust people enough to open up to them, and they know i freak out when I feel like i'm being controlled, but they still do stuff that they decide "is in my best interest" whether i like it or not.
Its like my gp was asking me last week about whether or not i found seeing a psychiatrist helpful. And I answered pretty much honestly because i thought i could trust her. But then i find out yesterday at my psych appointment that my gp had pretty much passed on everything i said, to the psychiatrist. Its like i think my psychiatrist is really useless, but i don't want her to know that's what i think. And i just really hate it when people talk about me behind my back.
And i got more lectures about what i should and shouldn't do from my psych yesterday. But its like i'm not stupid, i know what i should actually do to look after my body, i don't need people telling me what to do. Its my body i can do what the f**k i want to it.
Just so fed up of doctors deciding what treatments i need without caring what i think about treatment, or even bothering telling me sometimes. Like last time i was in hospital, they wanted to keep me in for observation, and i was like trying to sleep so had my eyes closed, and then some nurse was trying to put me on some drip, even though the last thing i'd been told was that i wasn't going to be given anything.
Its like they don't even care that i might actually want some sort of control over what they're doing to my body. And all i can think is that the only way i can stop them controlling my body is to just refuse to consent to all medical treatments they seem to think necessary.
sorry again, for ranting:(