Ram90011
11-28-2008, 06:10 PM
So my best friend found out about ana!! Well more like I totally broke down and the discussion just led into it. She knew the whole time but just didn't say anything. What's worse, she mentioned that if I continue and get thinner, she'll tell my mother. Even though I might hate her, she said she'd do it for me for my health. What the heck?? And today we went shopping, I swear at lunch I wasn't hungry, but I felt the tension, so I ate. Ugh, it was so horrible! I didn't want to. I didn't need to. And now I feel like I've been eating all day. It's gross. The whole time we were talking, I was just thinking of ways to get around her. Like in the morning I'll show her that I'm bringing food with me and then just hide it in my bag and tell her I'm gonna eat it after my class. I just can't have her tell my mom. It can't happen. Ugh... I hate this so much right now.