Day By Day - Nancy

[Emotional_Eater]

Okay so until we get a blogging and updating section im going to report here every day if possible.

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hope everyones well, and here goes :)

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[Emotional_Eater]

I was doing so well...so so well..

okay so today i woke up late so didn't have time to weigh myself, thought i would treat myself to my regular morning caffeine fix.. todays choice was an earl grey and i tried it without sugar, but i couldn't just couldn't...

so i put my 3 sugars (i know its alot, going to be cutting that down for sure!!) and didn' measure my milk cause as i said i was in a hurry...

so anyway i thought i really do need to eat before i go out cause i wasn't planning to eat anything until i got home that evening, so i had two slices of toast.. i should ALWAYS avoid bread from now on, but anyways, i don't buy the sliced stuff so i cut it myself, and the rush caused me to cut it thick and wonky so it was more like 3 slices. Ok, not the end of the world cause the rest of the day was going to be as guilt free as possible.

went shopping with my friend, bought essentials, and bought a lucozade sport to keep my energy up. 140 kcals...

Then what does my skinny friend tell me? she's hungry..and she wouldn't eat by herself and i thought okay, well if we go to spud-you-like, its better than a sandwich or macdonalds right?? plus no sugar spins...

well, i ordered, only to find out when i sat down that in fact i had ordered the most calorific one on the menu... thats another 492 kcals down the drain...

well i thought, thats fine, i feel over full so i probs wont eat very much later on...

damn my mother...

first she said whats for dinner cause apparently it was my day to cook... so i offer salad...she says no, what abot the fish and chip shop? nooo not for me i say so i said look you order food and il make myself a nice healthy vinigarette salad...

went into the kitchen and find my grandma had infact made a rele full vegetable soup, so i think its nice and warm, il have some of that. It did taste pretty nice and had a bit of a kick to it too, with only shitloads of veggies in it i assume, hardly any calories worth counting...

so, i have that and think great...thats me done, im over full and eaten pretty well... oh except for that extra coffee i had when i got back in from walking the dogs...it was cold!! and even if it was only half an hour, at least i was moving right??

then mum gets her pizza...( which she had decided on later..) pepperoni... my favorite...

"One slice wont kill you" she said with her jealous 'you wont lose weight if i can't' voice...

so i give in, one slice eh?? no harm, ive been really careful today (compared to my usual eat eat eat frame of mind)

except i cant just have one can i?? no...

but i stopped myself at 2 and im so happy i did...

ive been writing it all down in my food diary so i cant forget or cheat myself and i came up to my room to add it all up and figure it all out... look up sugar... 25kcals per heaped teaspoon... not toooo bad. look up bread and butter.. starting to look less favorable...

so before the pizza i had gone over... by about 300 kcal... could be alot worse... but im still very dissapointed in myself...

then i look up the pizza...oh the desasterous pizza...

per slice??? This really will make you cry...

420 kcal... PER SLICE!!!

so my two slices of pizza that "wont hurt" suddenly did, rele rele hard.. add 840 kcal on my total... 2128... 2128!!! ahhh

make you wanna throw it all up...but i wont...

i just feel like crap... oh well... first day of the diet, lessons learned.. must move on...

one thing that was weird tho was ive lost a lb scince last night.. i know i shouldnt weigh myself at night but after all this?!!? im guessing it takes a while for the lbs to pile on...

will report back tomorrow....
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