my journal

[cheergrl28]

hey so i'm new to this forum. basically my weight is the highest its ever been and every day i feel so disgusting. i still haven't stepped on the scale cause i'm too scared of what numbers will appear. i'm trying to start a 600 cal diet with exercise, so maybe writing it down every day will keep me on track. i'm also trying to go the healthy way this time and make sure i don't waste my calories on junk. i'll update my cal intake at the end of the day

think thin!! <3

19/f
Height: 5'5"
CW: about 131lbs-gross
HW: 135lbs
LW: 110lbs
GW: 115lbs
UGW: we'll see ;)

[cheergrl28]

ugh so far not so good. i had 730 cal yesterday =( but i pushed myself to go to the gym after work so i def burned at least 400. and i stepped on the scale for the first time in like 3 months, and it said 128! ew i know right, but still lower than i thought. i still look fatter and grosser than ever. and i think me and my bf are breaking up so im feeling really depressed lately. the only thing i can control is what i eat so hopefully today will be a better day.

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19/f
Height: 5'5"
CW: 128-still gross
HW: 135lbs
LW: 110lbs
GW: 115lbs
UGW: we'll see

[cheergrl28]

yesterday i started off so well. i only ate about 400 cals the entire day, and i even went to the gym again and burned 500. i weighed myself and i dropped almost 2lbs!
then at night i fought again wiht my boyfriend. it's still just like constant fighting, i don't even know if we're broken up or not. all my friends say i need to leave him but idk why i just cant.
but anyway, i binged last night big time. i turned into some kind of obese monster..i just grabbed a bunch of junk and brought it to my room and ate it all. i didn't even count the number of cookies i ate so i can't even tell you how many cals it was, but def close to 1000

i'm disgusting.


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19/f
Height: 5'5"
CW: 127.5-before my binge :mad:
HW: 135lbs
LW: 110lbs
GW1: 125lbs
GW2: 120
GW3: 115
UGW: 100