angel.eyes...
01-04-2010, 11:07 AM
my boyfriend has just got home from work and told me that he is going to jersey to work away for two weeks.
am so sad, i wanted to burst into tears and i was trying to keep my tears in but they just kept dripping out. (hes upstairs so he doent know i am crying)
i really dnt want him to go but its work so even if i ask him not to go he wudnt be able to not go anyway so its pointless me even mentioning it and posibley causing an argument.
il miss him too much, i see him every day and he more a less stays about 6 nights a week every week. i will miss all my night time cuddles when i cnt sleep :(
and the other thing is what if he cheats, am scared he will find a gorgeous skinny girl over there and i wudnt even know if he had or hadnt. i do trust him.... but i actually dnt think u can trust anybody 100%.
the other thing is when we was on a break/split up about a year ago he cheated (wel its not cheating coz we werent together) but it sure felt like he had. and he lied about this and the only reason i found out was coz am so sneaking... but thats a different story.
then after we got bk together about 2 - 3 weeks later he had to work away in scotland and when he got home some number rang his fone and when he answered i cud hear a scotish girl!!!!!!! wel my heart sank and i was asking him who it was and he put the fone down on them. they rang bk and he wudnt answer so i was like answer it now or its over so he answered and it was her again and she went who is this so he said his name and she went i duno who u r, so i said ask who that is so he did and she said her name and he went i dnt no u.
but like what the fuck! they mite not of knew each other but why the hell did she have his number. and what a coincident hes been working in scotland and it was a scotish girl who got the wrong number! hmmm :(
so yeah this is exactally why i dnt want him to go :(
he came down stairs and seen me upset so i just sed it was coz i was really tired (i cry when am over tired and he knows that and he knows i havnt been sleeping well) but he wasnt convinced and hugged me and said he will miss me loads and that i best not forget about him... so at least i know hes worrying about me too even tho he has no reason to what so ever.
and i asked after the two weeks is that it and he said no i mite just b home for the weekend and then back there for 2 maybe 3 weeks! oTo view links or images in this forum your post count must be 1 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. am so upset.
hes the other side of the room now and has just gone i love u, ur my angel..
but nothin he says will make me feel better when hes away there.
sorry this is so long and if its bored u but i just need to talk to someone about it
xxx
am so sad, i wanted to burst into tears and i was trying to keep my tears in but they just kept dripping out. (hes upstairs so he doent know i am crying)
i really dnt want him to go but its work so even if i ask him not to go he wudnt be able to not go anyway so its pointless me even mentioning it and posibley causing an argument.
il miss him too much, i see him every day and he more a less stays about 6 nights a week every week. i will miss all my night time cuddles when i cnt sleep :(
and the other thing is what if he cheats, am scared he will find a gorgeous skinny girl over there and i wudnt even know if he had or hadnt. i do trust him.... but i actually dnt think u can trust anybody 100%.
the other thing is when we was on a break/split up about a year ago he cheated (wel its not cheating coz we werent together) but it sure felt like he had. and he lied about this and the only reason i found out was coz am so sneaking... but thats a different story.
then after we got bk together about 2 - 3 weeks later he had to work away in scotland and when he got home some number rang his fone and when he answered i cud hear a scotish girl!!!!!!! wel my heart sank and i was asking him who it was and he put the fone down on them. they rang bk and he wudnt answer so i was like answer it now or its over so he answered and it was her again and she went who is this so he said his name and she went i duno who u r, so i said ask who that is so he did and she said her name and he went i dnt no u.
but like what the fuck! they mite not of knew each other but why the hell did she have his number. and what a coincident hes been working in scotland and it was a scotish girl who got the wrong number! hmmm :(
so yeah this is exactally why i dnt want him to go :(
he came down stairs and seen me upset so i just sed it was coz i was really tired (i cry when am over tired and he knows that and he knows i havnt been sleeping well) but he wasnt convinced and hugged me and said he will miss me loads and that i best not forget about him... so at least i know hes worrying about me too even tho he has no reason to what so ever.
and i asked after the two weeks is that it and he said no i mite just b home for the weekend and then back there for 2 maybe 3 weeks! oTo view links or images in this forum your post count must be 1 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. am so upset.
hes the other side of the room now and has just gone i love u, ur my angel..
but nothin he says will make me feel better when hes away there.
sorry this is so long and if its bored u but i just need to talk to someone about it
xxx