Jacklinger
12-31-2009, 09:10 PM
I find it difficult to think of something more pathetic than a fat man whining about hunger. So you may need to avert your eyes.
I had a company-bought pancake breakfast this morning around 9:00 am. It easily consisted of all the calories I'm permitted for today, so I've not eaten since then.
A couple of hours ago, I told my father that I felt too ill to join him this evening to watch movies and celebrate New Years. Technically it was not a lie, I do feel ill with hunger. My hunger has made me a bit depressed and I just don't feel like pretending to have a good time.
But people, in general, are loathe to offer sympathy to a fat person who complains about hunger. It just looks so undignified. I suppose the perception is that if one is fat, they have comitted some sort of crime. And hunger is a suitable punishment. So it's like listening to a criminal whine about being in prison. No one cares. People only care if the thin complain with hunger pain.
So I find myself keeping my suffering to myself. Sometimes a coworker may notice that I appear to be in pain and they will ask me what's wrong. I tell them it's just allergies, or that I didn't get enough sleep, or some other explanation. So now I'm home and don't need to explain why I look sick to anyone. People must wonder why I never say I'm hungry anymore, because I used to regularly.
I've been alone for years; I don't recommend it. But worse than being alone, is being alone and hungry constantly. I think it might be nice, if a woman could sit next to me and lean against me while we watched a movie, with my arm around her. I suspect the hunger would not feel so bad then. And I would have 2 less things to complain about.
I had a company-bought pancake breakfast this morning around 9:00 am. It easily consisted of all the calories I'm permitted for today, so I've not eaten since then.
A couple of hours ago, I told my father that I felt too ill to join him this evening to watch movies and celebrate New Years. Technically it was not a lie, I do feel ill with hunger. My hunger has made me a bit depressed and I just don't feel like pretending to have a good time.
But people, in general, are loathe to offer sympathy to a fat person who complains about hunger. It just looks so undignified. I suppose the perception is that if one is fat, they have comitted some sort of crime. And hunger is a suitable punishment. So it's like listening to a criminal whine about being in prison. No one cares. People only care if the thin complain with hunger pain.
So I find myself keeping my suffering to myself. Sometimes a coworker may notice that I appear to be in pain and they will ask me what's wrong. I tell them it's just allergies, or that I didn't get enough sleep, or some other explanation. So now I'm home and don't need to explain why I look sick to anyone. People must wonder why I never say I'm hungry anymore, because I used to regularly.
I've been alone for years; I don't recommend it. But worse than being alone, is being alone and hungry constantly. I think it might be nice, if a woman could sit next to me and lean against me while we watched a movie, with my arm around her. I suspect the hunger would not feel so bad then. And I would have 2 less things to complain about.