Jacklinger
12-29-2009, 07:44 PM
Ok so it's the holidays. I allowed myself to make the world's best lasagna, and was doing great, eating only 2 pieces of it per day, until today. I had 3 pieces and 3 peppermint patties (the little ones). I also had half a sandwhich and a banana and soup earlier in the day.
I guess it's not so bad. In the old days I would finish off the entire pan of lasagna in one day. But I don't want to make excuses for myself either or else I'll start letting everything slide.
When I was a musician, perfection was always the goal. Hours and hours of practice and rehersal was needed to perform a piece of music even at a mediocre level. Only those with great talent and the discipline to practice could play great music. But even these masters will miss a note during their performances in front of crowds. When that happens, they pretend it didn't, and just keep playing. If they let the mistake bother them, they will lose focus and miss more notes, which in turn causes more anxiety, and more missed notes, then ultimate failure and humiliation. But if they pretend it never happened, and just keep playing, the anxiety instantly passes and they can finish the song with no further mistakes.
So that's what I'll do. I'm not going to punish myself, nor give in to any further temptations. I'm not going to add up the calories I ate today. I'm not going to somehow justify what I ate either, or say it will be ok if I spend another hour working out before bed. I'm just going to enjoy the nice feeling of being full for the first time since I started the diet, and let the hunger come back tomorrow. I'm even looking forward to it a little bit.
And that's that.
I guess it's not so bad. In the old days I would finish off the entire pan of lasagna in one day. But I don't want to make excuses for myself either or else I'll start letting everything slide.
When I was a musician, perfection was always the goal. Hours and hours of practice and rehersal was needed to perform a piece of music even at a mediocre level. Only those with great talent and the discipline to practice could play great music. But even these masters will miss a note during their performances in front of crowds. When that happens, they pretend it didn't, and just keep playing. If they let the mistake bother them, they will lose focus and miss more notes, which in turn causes more anxiety, and more missed notes, then ultimate failure and humiliation. But if they pretend it never happened, and just keep playing, the anxiety instantly passes and they can finish the song with no further mistakes.
So that's what I'll do. I'm not going to punish myself, nor give in to any further temptations. I'm not going to add up the calories I ate today. I'm not going to somehow justify what I ate either, or say it will be ok if I spend another hour working out before bed. I'm just going to enjoy the nice feeling of being full for the first time since I started the diet, and let the hunger come back tomorrow. I'm even looking forward to it a little bit.
And that's that.